Tales of my world

Semester 5

2011-06-28T23:37:00.005+08:00

Here I am, back to this forsaken place call IMU.

New semesters are starting soon, which I had been looking forward for quite some time.

Seniors said this semester is going to be another honeymoon semester.

After looking at the module guide, yes, it does look like a honeymoon semester, only 12 lectures for each module, end of semester exams only involve 5 papers. The

best part is, they decided to change the exam format to MCQ (multiple choice questions).

For all my life, whenever comes to MCQ, I'm good at it. I just suck at expressing my ideas. That's why I don't do well in SAQ (short answered questions) and essay papers.

Well.. I should be happy, isn't it? But somehow I feel a little worried for it. It feels like IMU won't let me off so easily. Since when it decided to be kind to me?

Well.. We will see. If it's gonna be a free kill, I shall not hesitate. No point making myself getting in GAD (General Anxiety Disorder) right?

When comes to selectives, we have 5 to choose on: Traditional Chinese Medicine, Veterinary Pharmacy, Radiopharmacy, Analytical Method Validation and Bioinformatics.

Clearly TCM and Vet is gonna be a popular choice. Chinese people will opt for TCM and non-Chinese educated or other races will opt to vet, unless he/s

he is a non-animal lover like me.

Seriously, I have total zero interest in animals and TCM doesn't really interest me because the medium is in english.. like how on earth you going to talk about meridian or 5 elements or Yin-Yang? It just feels not right..

This is what they call 手太阴肺经.. So is it Tai-yin lung meridian of hand? and what the fuck is Tai-yin? Can some non-chinese explaining to me what does Tai-yin means to you..

So actually, I'm okay with any of the four (means except vet). And vet is a popular choice, so I don't really care..

I just don't understand, why people are being so judgemental about the other subjects. It's like you never been through it, why do you want to think it's gonna be boring? Seriously take it as new learning experience, satisfy your curiosity, who knows you might find your new love in there.

Well.. Since it's a first come first serve basis, I witness a fight-for-survival situation, where people do whatever it takes to get what they want. Apparently, there are a lot of people who only want one of the selective but not the rest. So dispute happened, creating a chaos. Some people who think that it's unfair to them.

One of the most laughable reason was, "Oh.. Academic Affairs Department says the box will be there after 5. So I didn't know people will start line up there and 'submit' at 4.30"

I wonder, are you blind, or a fucking retard?

You see most of the people disappeared from the lecture theatre at 4.25 and rush down while you sit there take your sweet time to decide which to pick and wait till 5pm. It's all your fault, who call you being so indecisive, and you see everyone ran down, you still taking your sweet time. Don't tell me you are thinking that, they ALL WENT TO TOILET BREAK?

It's just weird, some people's mind set..

Well.. What to do..

2 more hours and I'm gonna be 20..

2010-11-15T22:10:00.002+08:00

Time to kiss teenage goodbye in 2 hours time..

Come to think of it, what significant things had I done in the past 2 decades..?

Like nothing?

First time fell in love at 14?

Picked up piano at 15..

Had my first love at 16..

Enjoyed college life at 18..

Made it into pharmacy course at 19..

Academic wise..

Nothing much.. pretty screw up my UPSR, PMR, SPM or A-level..

Managed to get an average results that grand me ticket to next stage.. Just not really satisfying..

Semester 1 and 2's results are just slightly above average, but not satisfying..

Sports..

Err.. No.. I still suck at it..

Resolution for this year:

1. Trained myself physically..

2. Hoping to pick up 2nd music instrument..

3. Take part in sports in next year's IMU Cup.

That's all for now.. =D

Chronicles of life II

2010-10-02T07:36:00.003+08:00

"But still.."

"What..??"

"I want to contain it to myself."

"You think you could handle it by yourself? I know you very well. You will need me around.."

She held my hand and ran off. I had no choice but to follow. After awhile, I started to feel I was panting and breathing hard. "Where are we going?"
"Go had fun and cheer you up. I don't want my boyfriend to be gloomy all the time.."

We went randomly in the shopping mall, to the arcades, ice skating ring, archery..
"Thanks for the time.." I gave her a hug.

"That was fun. Finally I remove that emoness from your face. Remember that you can always depend on me. I am the best analgesic, anxiolytic, anti-depressant with zero side effects that you can ever find.." She sent me off home.

"Where were you? We were worried about you.." My mom seemed very worry.

"I'm alright." I gave them a gentle smile..

"Now that's better. I thought you are unable to accept it."

"Let's go eat.. I'm starving"

"Yes, your highness" My father was acting like my servant or something.

After dinner, we went to the seaside..

The night breeze was blowing on my face, bringing along the salty pleasant smell of the sea. I smiled. I just love the sea.

FLASH! Suddenly a flash light..

"DAD!! How can you.."

"That was a classic shot.. That smile that you always have when you are day dreaming looking at the sea. So did Neptune decided to marry you his daughter?"

Everyone burst into laughter..

"No.. Poseidon did.."

Oh dad.. You never fail to make me burst into laughter when I need one eh?

Chronicles of life I

2010-10-02T07:01:00.005+08:00

"Why is your urine so cloudy," mom said.

"No idea.. Maybe I'm gonna die from renal failure," I teased her.

Actually, I was really worried about that as well. It has been persistent for quite some time.

Maybe I'm really have to and get a check..

My mom covered my mouth with a mouth and whisper "Never even attempt to take that as a joke."

After checking... I had stage 2 chronic renal failure..

Like WTF.. I was mentally collapsed on the spot. So that's how I'm gonna die eh?

Shit.. I was totally unable to accept this fact..

I ran off the room. Then I saw a young couple. The girl was very weak and seems like really dying.

I sat there blanked, fears had been eating its way into my head.

Then I felt a pat on my shoulders. I turned. Oh It was that guy just now.

"What's wrong, bro..?"

"Nothing.." Trying to hold myself in one piece.

"So how bad was your kidney?" He seemed like know something.

"How you know? Just stage 2 CRF"

"Oh. It wasn't that bad." He seemed calm.

"It's NOT..!!"
"Well.. my wife.. the one just now you saw? She had end stage renal failure.. She's been depending on haemodialysis to maintain her life and all those drugs that she took had been causing troubles to her.."

"Oh.." I was suddenly woke up from being engulfed by the fear of death.
" You had been scare about dying huh? Well.. It's not death that we are feared of. It's the process of dying. The part that we suffered to an extend like never before, slowly losing conscious and things and people that we are unable to let go.."

"I see.." I went off..

I met up with a friend. A very close girl-friend of mine. She's actually a girl that I admired for quite some time.

"Hey.. How's life recently?"

"Not bad.. How's yours.."

"Okay.. I guess.. How's Jack?"

"How am I suppose to know?"

"Huh?"

"We were never together.."

"Oh.. I didn't know that.. Sorry.."

"Hey.. Actually.." She started blushing.

"Anything?"

"To be honest, I kind of have feelings on you."
"Huh?"

"I like you.."

Oh really? But think of the fact that I have not much time to live..
"But I can't.."
"Why? Do you have others in your heart.."
"It's not that.. You are the girl that had been occupy my heart all the while.."

"Then why?"

"I had not much time to live. I'm having renal failure.."

She hugged me.. "Don't say such silly thing.. You know renal failure patients still can live on for quite sometime with haemodialysis. And you are a future pharmacist, how can you don't know that.."

"But I'm scared..." My tears started flowing out..

"I will be here for you. I promised. I will hold your hands and accompany you to wherever it may take you."

That was comforting but I would want to contain it to myself.
I gently pushed her away. She wiped off the tears off my cheek.

"But still.."

Faith, trust, self-esteem

2010-09-17T01:00:00.003+08:00

I think.. I should learn to trust people more..

Learn to put faith in my partner..

Even he's so not dependable.. or maybe he is..

Shit.. Grace and Doreen.. If you see this, you two were great allies I could have in doing portfolio last time.. Makes me look like a parasite in the group.. Haha..

But now.. sighh.. I'm the one being sucked..

Back to this god-forsaken game..

2010-09-04T09:38:00.000+08:00

I can't believe it, I'm back to chess ONCE AGAIN..

Shit..

MERDEKA!!!!

2010-08-30T10:31:00.003+08:00

It's independence day tomorrow! Yay! Holiday~!!

I love Malaysia.. Love your weather, love your culture, love your food, love your location!

I'm borned here, and I'm proud to be a Malaysian!!

MERDEKA!!

Random updates: Disted Prom 2008 and IMU Ball 2010

2010-08-07T00:53:00.004+08:00

So this is the picture I took 2 years ago during Disted Prom 2008.. I was eighteen..

And this is recent one, during IMU Ball 2010 at April..
I guess there's some changes in me in the past 2 years..

Dream fragment

2010-07-24T20:39:00.003+08:00

"No.. you shouldn't do that!"

"Sir.. there is a leakage of chloroform from zone B.."

"Everyone prepare to wear a oxygen mask.."

"But there's only one left.."

"Release the Methane to zone B"
"Why?"
"Just release it.."
I carried oxygen mask and head for zone B. I took an axe along the way..

I went into zone B and axe the piping that contained the supply of methane..

I quickly ran out of the room, threw a lighter into it and close the fire door behind me..
I heard an explosion and after awhile, the fire alarm sounded, and water start spraying in the room..
"Wheww.. that should take care of the chloroform.."

If this is your desire outcome

2010-07-18T16:12:00.000+08:00

So be it..

I love you....

2010-07-07T22:38:00.002+08:00

Not sure what this feeling is..

but I think I'm madly in love with you..

I think of you every night I sleep..

Memories of you company me to sleep every night..

I really wish I could accomplish everything with you..

4 days..

2010-07-01T00:44:00.001+08:00

4 days to semester to start~

Tears of the devil

2010-05-30T23:19:00.001+08:00

Can I exchange half of my lifespan to double my intelligence level..

Conclusion of semester 2

2010-04-23T09:45:00.004+08:00

Today is my last day of semester 2 in IMU..

Seriously, time flies, it feels like just last month that term just started..

Now the term is over..

Let's see.. what had I achieve in this semester..

Get into contact with Pharm Chem people..

Get to know them and get close to them.. I guess that's consider I success.. Haha..

Suddenly feels like collecting friends from different courses.. LoL..

Basically, nothing else beyond that..

Experimenting self study method.. I guess that was quite a success..

Hmm.. Maybe it's just this semester is easier, that's why I can be independent of lectures..

Another thing.. I lost in my SRC election.. Well.. I don't really give a shit..

It's quite scary to know that.. I have 3 exams in 3 weeks in a row.. Then start stressing out with exams.. The next thing you realised, it's all over..

This semester I play much more than last semester.. In this half a year, I had 2 short bag packing trips, both to Melacca, once alone, another with 2 friends..

Attended IMU Ball.. First time went club.. First time take alcohol... First time Shisha.. All thanks to you, Pilip.. you broke how many record of mine.. Ishh...

But then.. I still don't like the club, alcohol or shisha.. So it's not that bad I guess..

EOS exam is in 2 weeks time.. Gambateh, everyone...

Exams are here..

2010-04-20T19:25:00.000+08:00

Gambateh, minna.....

Malacca revisited

2010-03-28T00:55:00.002+08:00

I'm here in historical town of Malacca again.. After 3 months..
This time I'm not alone.. but with 2 friends along..
Sighh.. Howard is not around... (Howard is the boss of the guest house I stayed for both time visitation to Malacca).. Kinda disappointing duh.. I was hoping him to bring me around on a bicycle around Malacca town.. but sighh.. no luck..
Now I realised the difference between coming alone and with company..
When along, I can do whatever I want..
With company along, it's more fun in some way.. but also comes with some troubles here and there.. Pros and cons..
Anyway, it was a pleasant trip.. Going back KL tomorrow.. back to schooling life of unlimited studies and assignments..

Goodnight people..

Tag: 23.3.2010

2010-03-23T23:53:00.002+08:00

Can you fill this out without lying? You've been tagged, so now you need to answer all the questions HONESTLY. At the end, choose at least 8 people to be tagged. Don't forget to tag me!

To do this, copy this entire message, then go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, delete my answers, and type yours. Easy peasy!

1.What was the last thing you put in your mouth?

Natural Valley Energy Bar Oats and Honey flavour

2.Where was your profile picture taken?

Some paintball ground

3.Can you play Guitar Hero?

No..

4.Name someone who made you laugh today?

I think.. no..

5.How late did you stay up last night and why?

1am.. Spamming Rui Yen's wall..

6.If you could move somewhere else, would you?

Yeah.. Penang Island

7. Ever been kissed under fireworks?

I never been kissed before... not even anywhere..

8. Which of your friends lives closest to you?

Pilip Seet..

9. Do you believe ex's can be friends?

Why not? She's my god-sister now.

10. How do you feel about Dr Pepper?

who is Dr Pepper?

11. When was the last time you cried really hard?

Few days ago? when everything just became so fucked up..

12. Who took your profile picture?

Alicia Wong's boyfriend, Kenn Teoh

13. Who was the last person you took a picture of?

Amy and Louise.. eating cheese cake..

14. Was yesterday better than today?

Yeah.. I think so..

15. Can you live a day without TV?

I don't watch TV..

16. Are you upset about anything?

Yeah..

17. Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?

Of course yes.. If not why people are desperate for it..

18. Are you a bad influence?

Of course I am.. =)

19. Night out or night in?

Night in..

20. What items could you not go without during the day?

Nothing in particular..

21. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?

my grandaunt.. i think.

22. What does the last text message in your inbox say?

No prob =) All the best in your test tomorrow.. Jia you - Catherine, next VP medical science

23. How do you feel about your life right now?

The fun had just begun..

24. Do you hate anyone?

Yes.. so much hatred that I would skin him alive..

25. If we were to look in your Facebook inbox, what would we find?

Nothing.. cause i just deleted everything this evening.. =)

26. Say you were given a drug test right now, would you pass?

no..

27. Has anyone ever called you perfect?

Yes.. Just a praise when I get things done.. not really mean perfect perfect..

28. What song is stuck in your head?

Que Sera Sera - Doris Day

29. Someone knocks on your window at 2:00 a.m., who do you want it to be?

her...

30.Wanna have grandkids before you’re 50?

50.. why not?

31. Name something you have to do tomorrow?

Concentrate and collect 15 out of 15 marks from Dr Arjun.. I mean 15..!!

32. Do you think too much or too little?

Too much..

33. Do you smile a lot?

Not really..

34. If Facebook didn't allow you to add another person but you only added 7, then what would you do?

Change to twitter..

Tag:

Ian Gooi

Cheng Yee

YiZuan

Ai-chin

Wei Loon

Huah Chiang

Carolyn Ch'ng

Krystle

Climax of semester 2

2010-03-03T16:50:00.003+08:00

If you had been stalking me a lot recently, you would know..
I'm in a very stressed state right now..
So stress that I seriously don't feel any shit anymore..
I'm basically start to lose my humanity and sanity..

There are Haitian disaster fundraising down there.. and I just realised that there are actually 300 thousand casualty. All I responded was.. "Oh.."
Then Chile's disaster.. 8.8 on Ritcher scale.. make the earth day shorten by approx 2 secs.. and dunno how many people died.. All I responded was.. "Oh.."
I know.. My reactions were very inhuman.. Maybe I was a little tired to have any emotions.. which is a bad thing I suppose..
Natural disasters are more and more these days.. happens more and more often..
What I can think of is.. Nature is trying to maintain its equilibrium. Everything in this universe have to be in its equilibrium state.. Just like prey-predator relationship.. Since human don't have any "predator", so only way to maintain it back, is by force of nature.. disease.. We can't say a shit or do any preventive measurement to it.. but to pray that you won't be the prey that is being eliminated.. What to do.. It's natural disaster..

Studies had caused me to be anti-social more than ever..
If this is a game of "The Sims", you would see my "social" bar at its very low..
But people actually miss me, questioning about why I don't go to class..
Some worry about me.. But people.. I'm fine.. thanks for the concern.. and sorry at the same time..

Deep inside, I actually feel very lonely.. I need company..
Man.. I need a girl friend..

Depolarization Block

2010-02-26T23:48:00.003+08:00

I just realised, To cure stress of can't be able to finish study, is to stress myself further to finish it..
Once I got it right, I feel much satisfied and better..
Like the mechanism I study in pharmacology, desensitize the receptor by introducing a lot a lot of the stimuli to it.. then the receptor won't be stimulated again..

Well.. I just realised something, my self-studying plan works pretty well..
Nowadays, I don't go for lectures, only workshops..
Lectures are plain pointless..
I can save up that time to study on my own and acheive a better results than majority of people who attend class..

Even tutorials, it's like majority of people don't prepare for it..
It's IMU tradition, they love intense stress and suffer! They want to keep everything to last minute, so that they can mourn about the stress and suffering..
So tutorials doesn't contribute to marks, who the heck cares?
So at the end, some lecturers also doesn't do much with it, because no one prepare for it..
Disappointing...

Updates 02212010

2010-02-21T23:39:00.005+08:00

I just realised.. I didn't update my blog for quite some time..

Well.. Life is a little way too boring to write here. Nothing interesting happens over here. Just plain and boring.
Everyday, just went for lectures, lab sessions, study and facebook apps.

Mouse hunting! Some people may define this game as ultimate boredoom but it some how attracts me deeply. The first thing I wake up, not brushing my teeth or wash my face but SOUND THE HORN! This game starts to get more and more boring every passing day. I had complete my collection. What can I do now? Wait for events? Funding for Lady R? Or try to collect 100 dragon or 100 acolytes or 100 mojo? Then what? 1000? Or behaving like some nutcase, hunting in elub and jungle of dread for points to level up?

Lectures are getting more and more pointless nowadays. Most lecturers just read from the slides or notes provided. Some explains but it takes longer for him/her to explains than I can read and digest it myself. Sorry.. I know I'm being arrogant. But that's how I feel.. I rather spend my time in the library and read it up.. Nowadays, lectures are attended for 3 reasons:
Firstly, have a better environment to sleep. Our lecture theatres are so comfortable and addition of soothing music that drives you to sleep.
Secondly, it's a social event! You need to be there to make friends. You want to be with your friends, lectures are the best place for you. You can even date your girl friend there with perfect lightings.
Thirdly, it's just a time for you to read your notes for that hour. Most people (like me) don't have the disciplin to stare at the lecture notes for 1 hour. Lectures are perfect time for it. You can't do anything else in there. So those pieces of papers on your desk are the most interesting stuff you can find. Then start read it!

Lab sessions are interesting if reports are not necessary. Just go in and play along. The best way to kill time. Just go inside and have fun. A morning is over.

Another thing.. So far 9 months in IMU, I liked 3 girls. Last week, I gave up on her. Week after that, she's taken by other guy. Should I be proud of myself? Or should I kill myself for being so incompetent?

Haha.. I'm losing my sanity partially. I'm aware of that. Don't worry.

Bon Voyage, Christine Lee

2010-02-07T00:43:00.001+08:00

I will miss you..

Aftermath

2010-02-02T22:11:00.004+08:00

Today is my first day of class after a wonderful weekend of bag packing..
These are the effects:
-I actually feel much relax during class.. not stressful anymore..
-My appetite recovered completely..
-I became more friends-independent.. In other words, more loner..
-Love gene being suppressed..
-Emo gene suppressed..
-Feel great..
-Can concentrate in class better..
-Back to holiday mood = lazy to study..

I swear during the trip, I totally forget about KL.. KL life, IMU life and whatever.. I totally forget about them.. Total in relax mode.. My stress level almost totally drop to 0..
I even totally forget about her on my trip there.. It was an awesome trip..
I didn't expect it to be so nice to go travel alone..

Next destination:
Kuantan.. maybe 26th Feb.. Friday is public holiday.. =)

or maybe..

Taiping.. 19th Feb.. That time I was on CNY term break.. Maybe on the way back to KL, I can stop by Taiping..

Code International

2010-02-01T08:10:00.002+08:00

This is my day 2 in Melacca.. Sorry for the late updates..

Morning I went to Zoo Melaka.. It wasn't great compare to some descend zoo like National Zoo of Singapore.. But at least the animals there are "alive", not like some zoo, the animals looks dying.. Another thing is, the animals there are really well fed.. A little subject to obesity.. The disappointing part was I saw "Scmitar Horned Oryx" on the map, but it was already removed.. Probably died or something.. It took me around 3 hours to make a round... So it wasn't that big..

Afternoon spent at Jonker Street again.. Visited a few cultural museum.. Then walk around randomly and aimlessly.. Ending myself at the hotel at evening.

I met these transfer students from all around the world that went to UPM for student transfer programme. They were awesome.. Trust me.. =)
Had a lot of fn hanging around them in the night market..

Sighh... and I'm going back in 3 hours time.. to KL.. to where I suppose to be right now.. I will miss this place, people here...

Mission Malacca

2010-01-31T00:33:00.002+08:00

Here I am.. The historical town of Malacca..
Wait.. In the first place.. why the hell am I in Malacca in the middle of schooling days?!
Aren't you suppose to be studying?? Zhi Hao..

Well.. To be honest, this is one of my most random and crazy idea of all times..
You can say, I'm a little too free.. xD
Being random is what I do best.. xD
Nah.. I wanted to visit Malacca for quite some time.. It's been almost 10 years since I came..

Okay.. Back to Malacca.. I took a bus from Puduraya at 11.30am.. Jebat Express.. Some small company.. So.. It wasnt that comfortable ride..
My bus was suppose to straight go to Melaka Sentral but I end up drop off at an outskirt town called Masjid Tanah.. Due to some stomach problem.. I sort of developing mild gastric problem.. So drop off here for toilet and lunch..
Then I took the bus from there (Masjid Tanah has a bus terminal.. That's why I dare to came off here).. It wasn't a direct bus to Sentral as well.. Passing through a few towns in Malacca State.. Klebang, Sg Udang.. So I get to have a quick glance of Malacca State.. Well.. Sort of..

The exciting part was I reached Melaka Sentral.. and dunno what to do there.. Haha.. Nearly got tricked on a taxi that cost me MYR15.. But I found a bus which cost me MYR3.60..
Then I drop off at Stradhurt.. It's near the Red Church.. Then start walk around Jonker Street and its nearby streets for hotels.. That time was around 5pm.. Well.. Then I found this place.. Cost me MYR25 per night. Quite cheap huh.. A comfy room but shared bathroom.. Well.. It's not really that a big problem.. It's just a guest house.. =)

After taking a bath there, then I went off to A Famosa and St Paul's hill..
A Famosa, from what I remembered 10 years ago.. It was like in the outskirt..
Now.. A Famosa become like middle of the town.. Like some piece of abandoned building in the middle of the town.. Total losing its "fort" look.. To make things worse, they make some new fake cannons in front for photography purposes, with a metal gates surrounding it too.. I was like.. are they stupid or what.. They totally destroy its historical value.. Shit..

Then went to some museum.. Found out some interesting historical stories.. The LRT station Dang Wangi.. Dang Wangi is actually Hang Tuah's mother.. and Parameswara did went to China.. I never knew about this part..

Then it was 8pm.. I start walk around Jonker night market.. There were performances every where.. and a night market.. With food and everything..
Then Edna and her dad picked me up at around 9.30? Then we went for Sate Celup..
It is Melaka specialty.. Sort of Lok lok.. but with Satay Curry.. Quite nice..

Then they drive me to Portugese Settleman.. I thought it would be some old town of something.. with some cultural activities.. But it turns out to be just some residential area.. Nothing special about it.. So we went off.. =)

Now.. I'm blogging in my hotel.. They have internet services over here.. =)
Goodnight peeps..

Is Jesus Christ = Sephiroth or something?

2010-01-19T02:11:00.004+08:00

Look at this advert..!! Oh my God!! I'm so scared!!
Is Jesus some satan or something? Oh.. He's coming, and it's the end of the world..
All unbeliver shall go to hell! All believer shall die too! and go to heaven with me..

Wow.. Is your "God" such a sadist? Or there is a coup d' tat in heaven, and Lucifer take over the heaven, replacing "God"?
Quit this shit about Judgement Day or whatever crap about end of the world..

I strongly believe the original teaching that Jesus gave do not has anything threatening bull shit as Judgement Day and all unbeliever shall go to hell.. It's just these "religious" people added into the Bible throughout the history.. People who desperate for power, fortune and influence..

It's history, no ones know.. No one can proved it.. Unless you found a way to get back in time 2010 years before and interview Jesus Christ..

Some times, I really hope "God" would descended from His "heaven" and deliver His "holy punishment" to these bird-brain-only-know-how-to-talk-shit-people for twisting His teaching..

Well.. "God" is a belief, no one can prove it does not exist, as long you believe He exist, then He exist.. Up to you..
and His "Personality" also depends on how you believe He would be.. A righterous one.. or some sadist devilish God up there.. who can't wait to end this world.. and send His son down to Earth to collect some poor souls to heaven..

Now.. this is epic

2010-01-17T17:17:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is a new start..

2010-01-10T16:58:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow, semester 2 commence..
Finally will get to see my long miss friends..
And.. we will be having 3 pharmacy subjects this coming semester.. Whee~~!!
So looking forward to it..

I just realised something.. I become more emotionless than last time.
Shit.. This is a bad thing.. I fail to smile when see my friends..
What's wrong with me anyway..
And emotionless made people think I am emo and depressed..

Another thing, I became more blur than ever..
Arghh...

It's pointless

2010-01-08T22:08:00.002+08:00

Recently about the news about the word "Allah" that causes such a big chaos..
I mean.. what's the point.. The bastard that started it just want to gain soem political popularity.

Now, great.. He gained the popularity he needs..
Even PAS also didn't say anything, you people come up and fight for what?
Oh? Do you want to register the registry that word that only you can use?

And if they really insisted, then why you people out there making a fuss about it..
They believe that only Muslim can use "Allah" then let it be la..
Why want to argue about it? Are you going to insert that word in your daily prayer as well?
No right?

It's impossible to argue belief with people that has the different belief..
It's just impossible to make a point that sound logic in his mind.. Seriously, it just sounds like nonsense..

They are just protecting their belief..
Just like you Christians will start shout at scientific person that challenge you about the existance of God.. or whether the virgin mother is really a virgin.. or whether Jesus is really borned by the virgin mother..
He think your belief is nonsense.. while you think that he's pitiful and faithless..

It's just pointless... to argue with those people that whether "Allah" is a only-Muslim-used-word..

And about burning of churches.. They won't do that la.. please..
Think of the consequences if they do that?
They will make themselves the enemy of the entire world..
Even back in Europe during the holy war, they at most convert a mosque into a church or church into a mosque.. They never demolish it.. unless it's accidental..

Happy New Year 2010.

2010-01-01T00:32:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year, my dear readers.. =)

Summary of 2009

2009-12-31T13:50:00.003+08:00

January
My first time exposed to this working world. The time I started to volunteer in Penang Adventist Hospital in their charity department. Start to fund raise around the hospital. It was fun at first, start to reach for the target set. Till one day, we managed to reach our target RM1000. We were overjoyed.

February
Continue at the same position. But after target reached, we set a higher target, till we realised that the target is impossible to reach. So we end of start to get bored with it. Till Valentine's Day when they announce it's the last day. We were very happy about it. Not to say collecting coins outside and counting of coins using the machine.

March
This month is more on office work and counting of coins. Good that Ian is here. At least life is not that boring. Watching Shin Chan on you tube using office computer during lunch break was a pleasant memory.

April
Fundraising is back again. Ian and Wen Hui left. Left I one person carry the work. Those were nightmarish days. But I get paid for this. I'm a part time here. Well, when pay is concerned, there will be expectation. For usual Chinese boss, they pay you 1 dollar, they expect you to earn back 2 dollar for them. The expectation were high and I resigned at the end of the day, cannot take it anymore.

May
A new environment. I started to work as waiter. Dealing with a stingy boss and a bunch of ass-holic customers were a pain in the ass. But thanks to the nice supervisor I had, it wasn't that bad. At least, I learnt something.

June
Went to Perth for holiday. I kinda love the environment there. A very pleasant town to live at. The great thing about this town is the citizen's working etiquette. They totally love their work and they totally give all they can. Not like our country, they are like dying or something. I mean their attitude. After back from Perth, spending my days with Maple Story. Maple whole day and everyday till semester starts

July
Uni life starts now. Orientation was fun. Actually I love it a lot. Then class starts, it's been half a year I didn't touch any books. So it was quite a pain to concentrate on study.

August
Now study life really begins. Projects released. Practical report after another.

September
Due date of most projects are approaching. Everyone rushing for last minute work. Team work is quite a pain in most projects. Except for the General Chemistry's, at least my members are enthusiastic. It was done quite well.

October
Tests are here. Everyone study! and enjoy the last month of semester 1

November
Exams here. IMU is really a living hell. Everyone's having the face of "Don't mess with me, or I'll bite your head off". And due to lack of sleep, panda eyes and pale faces are everywhere. Ish.. scary.. Well.. maybe due to pressure, my interest in piano was again rekindled.

December
Holiday. Ordinary and pleasant. Relaxing and boring.

Bye 2009. Hi 2010.

Reading my past

2009-12-28T17:23:00.002+08:00

Spent 1 hour plus reading back my blog..
The previous few months ago posts..

To my surprise, I don't remember any shit about those.
It's more of like reading someone else's diary..

But somehow.. there's still something there..
To be honest, I feel kinda embarrassed to go back to my ex working place.
It's like a cursed, forsaken place to me. For God-knows-reasons..
Especially development office, I just feel like I owed the manager a lot and feel very embarrassed to see her or to even step into that place. For all the troubles I made and created there, For my failure once and another. It's just.. I feel so sorry and guilty to that place..

Another 2 weeks and my holiday is over, rested more than enough. I'm kinda looking forward towards semester 2, seriously. Our semester is seriously too short.
I rather they minus our holiday and make the semester longer, so that we have more time to rest in middle and also prepare for exams, so that our life won't be that hectic and more time for extra-curricular activities.

Epic bullshit of the day

2009-12-25T00:00:00.002+08:00

A: Why are you not eating?
B: Because I'm not hungry.
A: Why are you not hungry?
B: Because I just ate.

M: Why you look so sad?
J: Because I'm not smiling.

Anyway, Merry Christmas!!

Christmas is coming again..

2009-12-20T00:07:00.002+08:00

Christmas is around the corner again..
Christmas brings a lot of sweet memories and also nightmare to me..

Christmas originally brings no meaning to me.. It is just a public holiday to me.. Nothing more.. Just like some other public holiday like Hari Raya or Thaipusum.. I means absolutely nothing, but a day off for my daddy.. Well, you know, I'm not a christian and christmas is originally a christian's festival.. Just that it got so wide spread that, it became an international holiday..

Just recently, I started to have gathering during christmas.. It's weird that why not we have gatherings at some other holiday but christmas? Come to think of it, they have countdown for christmas at Gurney Drive, but never heard they have countdown for Hari Raya at Gurney Drive..

Well.. Maybe that's the only time everyone is free and be around to gather.. I guess it serves its purpose as a holiday..

My 2006 christmas was a nightmare.. Did some irreversible blunder of my entire life that would cause me to regret for life..

My 2007 christmas was an enjoyable one.. Gather up with chess people at Stallion and overnight there.. playing pranks, cards..

2008 christmas was kinda boring.. I think I'm still gathered with the chess people, but due to too long didn't see them, can't really "click" with them anymore.. Was a little boring duh..

But the new year's eve was awesome.. It was the best moment of my life.. and yeah.. 2 of them left us and go to overseas for their studies.. 2 can't get along with each other.. so I think it's quite hard for us to have something like that in near future.. =)

Well.. that's why it's a memory.. that's why it's call history.. They are meant to be recall.. meant to be written in diaries.. Not meant to be reanimate or relive it.. *wink*

Come to think of it.. I had grown up a lot.. Sometimes, when recall back what I did last time, I feel I'm kinda stupid.. I guess after all these challenges up ahead.. that taught me to swear.. Had stimulate my growth.. Haha.. =)

Semester 2

2009-12-05T18:49:00.002+08:00

Okay.. No more emoing.. Time to wake up from depression..
Gotta start prepare for next semester..
I guess blaming myself for not doing well is not constructive..

Let's start planning for next semester:
1. Gotta start study from day 1 in next semester no matter what.. I miss my target this semester, Doesn't matter.. I miss this time, I shall prevail the next time..
2. Spend more time with my friends instead of lock myself in my room most of the time.. (I think I had been neglecting people around me..)
3. Go gym every night or at least 4 times a week.. Gotta train myself up physically and also trying to lose my extra hypodermis layer..
4. Be a better friend and companion.. and smile more..

Okay.. objective set, time to strive..

I miss you..

2009-12-02T23:56:00.001+08:00

Even looking at pictures can't really give me any ideas how you were like..
I guess I really starting to miss you..

Vampire Knight

2009-12-01T15:34:00.004+08:00

I guess I'll just make an overall review of this both series.
The artworks are beyond praises.. Really nice drawing..
The Opening Theme and Ending theme for both are really epic.. Love the 4 songs there..
As for the story line, it is rather normal, kinda boring.. But the artwork.. *speechless*

Profile B: Recommended

I really wish...

2009-11-27T00:30:00.000+08:00

I really wish.. you to know how I feel towards you..

I'm back in Penang.. finally..

2009-11-23T17:41:00.002+08:00

I'm back in Penang Island.. xD

Well.. Time for sedimentation of my CO2 problem..
And also planning what to do in these weeks..

I managed to came out with 3 plans:
1-Sharpen my piano skills
2-Go back PAH to volunteer in their pharmacy
3-Find a part-time job to earn some cash..

Hmm.. Well.. I plan to learn up "Flight of the Bumble Bee" in this holiday.. It's been my dream to play that song.. I can take this opportunity to learn it up.. and maybe my "Itsudemo Nandemo -Joe Hisaishi" and try memorise my "Tifa's Theme"..

Volunteer in pharmacy can be a good exposure.. to make sure that I really did not make a mistake by choosing pharmacy.. Well.. I can work there and practice my piano.. since it's not that heavy.. and the time is quite flexible.. I can have more outing with friends..

Part-time job.. will be more money orientated.. My holiday will be busy holiday.. It will be like 6 days a week and work for 10~12 hrs per day.. it will be a whole day thing..
Well.. I did have some future plans, I need some funds.. My friend had a plan that struck me.. To have a back-packing trip to Europe.. in 5 yrs time.. Well.. it sounds like a cool and descent plan..
So I need to start saving from now..

On the other hand, I did had plans about traveling around, before I get bonded to a family.. To europe, states, japan or maybe some pacific countries..

Hmm.. so now it's Holiday versus Money

P-E-E syndrome

2009-11-20T22:56:00.002+08:00

It's finally over.. I mean my exams..
But.. I don't feel happy at all.. It's like what's wrong with me..
Starting to get PEE syndrome.. (Post exam emo)
Suddenly, I feel so free.. Till I became bored to the core..
Studies really is the main course of my life so far..
Suddenly, you tell me no need to study for some time..
Feel a little like life wasted.. cause last time was like.. every minute in my life have to be taken into account to study..

Well.. I'm going back Penang coming Sunday night.. xD
Can't wait to go back to my lovely birthplace..

Aikzz..

2009-11-12T07:30:00.002+08:00

Exam periods are very near..
I should be concentrate 100% on my studies..
But why am I still think of something else instead..
It's not a good timing to think about her..
To be honest, I like someone..

But.. sighh..
Still.. I feel very uncertain about it..
I doubt my feeling about it..
Maybe it's just an emotional rush of thoughts..
Well.. as some people said, Heart have reasons that mind can never understand..
Maybe that's what happens, my mind (the rational and realistic one) had been hesitating..
but my heart (the emotional) is pushing me..

Sighh.. maybe the timing is not right..
The day I fell for her, is the day my heart convince my mind..
but it's like Heseinberg Uncertainty Principle..
in this case is not location and momentum, but realistic and emotional..
Realistic x emotion = a constant.
When realistic approach infinity, emotional approach 0...
So how can they convince one another.. Shit..

问世间情为何物...

Inochi no Namae

2009-11-06T23:17:00.005+08:00

This is the version perform by Joe Hisaishi and Kaku Wakako..

This one is I record from my friend playing in our school's grand piano in Lecture Theatre

Strive for excellence

2009-11-05T11:31:00.003+08:00

Finals is here for almost everyone who is studying now.. Except UPSR and PMR..

Everyone, raise your sword and embrace yourself for your long desire.. It would be a tough road ahead. But bear with it.. Remember what you desperate for..

In my name, I swear victory ~ Miklotov, Suikoden II

Is hell endothermic or exothermic?

2009-10-28T23:02:00.001+08:00

First, we have to take in account the location of hell.
As most of the religion described, hell is something beneath the earth, which means it's under our feet.

Endothermic means absorption of heat. If hell is endothermic, it would absorb heat from the surface that it get contact to, which is our world, "earth surface".
If hell absorb heat from the surface of the earth, then we won't be experiencing any global warming because heat had been absorbed into hell.
If rate of hell absorb heat is faster than heat that humankind produced daily, our world will enter another ice age. This is not possible, as we can see from this diagram. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Instrumental_Temperature_Record.svg. Our global climate is increases every passing year int he past century.
If rate of hell absorb heat is slower than heat that humankind produced daily, our world still heating up. However, this will causes the hell to be hotter every passing day. In order to keep the pressure of hell constant, so that hell won't explode beneath of feet, the volume have to be increase to compensate the increase in heat. If this were to happen, our Earth volume will increase every passing day and our earth will start to crack as our surface area is less likely to increases.

Consider hell is exothermic, as some of the religion described, hell has those "mechanism" to "punish" stained soul, and this mechanism should produce heat. In addition, we have to take in account the heat produced by the souls daily.. and where would this heat be released to? It's beneath us, so heat shall be released to the earth surface in order to maintain the constant pressure of the hell so that it won't explode.

As a conclusion, to make sure that our earth surface don't crack due to the expansion of hell, the hell is exothermic.

-Zhi Hao 28.10.2009 1556hours (GMT+8) xP

I really need to maintain myself well..

2009-10-28T11:40:00.002+08:00

As the final judgement day approach, my stress level had been increases exponentially...
Due to the stress taken in, I always have no choice but to stay up late to study..
What to do? I can't study in daylight.. Don't ask me why.. I just don't have that "ohm" to study at day time.. My brain starts working at around 10pm onwards.. and can last till 3~6 in the morning.. Crazy right..? Then I will sleep till 1 or 2 in the afternoon.. Oh well.. It's still 7~8 hours sleep.. But I'm seriously disrupting my sleeping cycle..
Even I know that's bad.. But why am i still doing it...???
TO be honest, I don't want to.. But I have no choice..

Sighh..
Going to fell sick soon.. Nose stucked, throat starts to sending out SOS signals..

I got to maintain myself well.. OR else, I'll be so fucked up in the exams.. Sshh..

Responses to Extreme Difficult Question

2009-10-27T00:37:00.005+08:00

Arrogant type:
Never mind. I don't know how to do, everyone else sure don't know how to do.. *walk away*

Determine type:
Let's give it one more shot. I don't believe I can't make it.

Stubborn type:
I must get it right. Even it cost my sleep tonight!

Extraordinary intelligent type:
Sighh.. This is easy.. Why is everyone making a fuss out of it?

Cool type:
*Drink a sip of water and continue tackle the question*

Desperate type:
How the hell do this and this related.. ARGHH!! Someone save me!!

Despair type:
Fine..! I'm not looking at you anymore..

Depressed type:
*Thinking very hard but still no idea* Arghh.. Someone please kill me..

Confident type:
I don't believe I can't do it..

Dramatic type:
OH MY GOD!!! What the f**king hell is this!! *start throwing the question paper*

Violent type:
F**K YOU!! *Tear the paper to pieces*

Combo-rapper type:
K****** YOU M*****-F***** WHAT THE ******* H*** IS THIS PIECE OF SH**

Shakespeare type:
To do or not to do~

Fed-up type:
Bah!! I'm not looking at you now.. *Change to other topic*

Irritated type:
What is this piece of nonsense??

Optimistic type:
Sure there is a way..

Aedeth Bay type:
Live today, fight tomorrow.. *Lights off and sleep*

Elizabeth Swann type:
I will fight, and you will die!

Senior-dependent type:
It's okay.. I'll ask my senior.. *Seniors all start hiding*

Mavis type:
What the fish is this crap?

Faithful type:
Oh God.. Please grant me all the strength I need for this..

Chinaman type:
Aiya.. Never mind one.. Just one question..

Spartan type:
Tonight, WE DINE IN HELL!! *Scratching his head and continue the work*

Lecturer-dependent type:
*Start calling the extension number of lecturers*

Happy-go-lucky type:
Never mind.. I'll do this later.. *start enjoying life*

Slow internet..

2009-10-25T13:22:00.000+08:00

My internet speed is becoming slow like last time..
Sighh.. P1 is certainly unstable to use..

Resemblence

2009-10-22T22:59:00.002+08:00

I just realised something.. A few new friends here actually resemble some of my close friends back in college or high school.. Their behaviour.. The way they talk...

Michelle Ngo is actually quite alike with Carolyn Ch'ng..

Dave Ling is like a mirror image of Crossburn..

Clement Chong talks like Samuel Lee..

etc etc..

I guess.. But still.. there are still a few very unique people that they are like the last of their kind.. near-extinct species..

Stats over..

2009-10-15T18:02:00.001+08:00

Finally... Stats is over.. One more module down..
Coming up next: Basic Mathematics..

Shit.. Emo-ing..

Statistics

2009-10-11T04:00:00.002+08:00

I'm still awake and motivated..
Studying my god-forsaken-statistics..
Some girl in my course describe it as something that is designed to suffocate students like her..
Oh well.. It was very hard.. Addition to that, our lecture notes are incomplete, so I have to refer to reference books and online websites.. + my brain power to digest and udnerstand it..
Gone through Relative Risk... Odd Ratio.. Chi-square.. T-test.. and now ANOVA..
ANOVA is kinda hard.. Till now, I haven't got the idea wad the hell it is..

2 more chapters..
Hope can finish it by sunrise..

2 days od relaxation..

2009-10-09T09:35:00.002+08:00

The scary human biology test is over.. Plan to rest for these 2 days..
Then gonna start revising my stats this weekend.. Had a final test on stats next thursday..

Slept well last night.. Just that I woke up when my dream had reached the climax.. So sad..

I have come to realised.. (part II)

2009-10-08T21:10:00.001+08:00

1. I've come to realize that my hair:
is getting longer and longer.. I need a hair cut!

2. I've come to realize that when I talk:
I talk freely.

4. I've come to realize that all I really need:
a girl friend.. I doubt I can have one any time soon..

5. I've come to realize that I've lost:
my stress and tension after spent the whole morning with Jamie Chan and Yoke Shan..Thank you very much..

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when:
I have to be alone at home.. Screw Pi Lip.. how many activities you attending.. xP JK

7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk:
I will talk all sorts of nonsense.. and become very hyper..

8. I've come to realize that money:
is always a factor when comes to anything.

9. I've come to realize that when I get old:
I wanna go on an island escape with my loved ones..

10. I've come to realize that I'll always be:
thinking of someone or something in my mind..

11. I've come to realize that I have a crush on:
no one.. Still observing around..

12. I've come to realize that the last time I cried was:
when I really cannot tahan the stress I'm giving to myself..

13. I've come to realize that my cell phone:
is my best companion..

14. I've come to realize that when I wake up in the mornings:
Arghh.. I still want to sleep... a little more.. zzZ

15. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night :
I brush my teeth and use my face cleanser..

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about:
nothing.. but any question encountered in this tag..

17. I've come to realize that my life:
is gonna be freaking challenging.. I'm in a hell called IMU..

18. I've come to realize that my favourite drink is:
coconut juice..

19. I've come to realize that today I will:
need a rest..

20. I've come to realize that tonight I will:
take a good rest..

21. I've come to realize that tomorrow I will:
gonna to meet Dr Er for the finalisation of poster.. before printing..

22. I've come to realize that I really want to:
spend more time with my buddies..

23. I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to repost this is:
my readers.. and stalkers..

24. I've come to realize relationships are:
not easy to maintain..

25. I've come to realize that love:
is what I need..

26. I've come to realize my best girl friend(s):
are lovely.. Thanks for keeping me company..

27. I've come to realize my best guy friend(s):
had gone for cheerleading now.. and somewhere else having a great time..

28. I've come to realize food is:
important especially good penang food..

29: I've come to realize that this summer:
I will be meeting my long-missed Carolyn and Wei Loon... (most probably..)

30. I've come to realize heartbreak :
when her behaviour is disappointing..

31. I've come to realize that the last person i liked:
disappointed me to the core..

32.I've come to realize that my sister(s):
is cute and lovely..

33. I've come to realize that crying:
doesn't solve problems.. crying over, back to square one..

34. I've come to realize that death:
is inevitable.. so why think about it..

35. I've come to realize that if I'm sick:
I really need someone's care..

36. I've come to realize when I'm bored:
I will play facebook, computer games, listen to music.. or find someone to kacau..

Scary Exams

2009-10-06T18:51:00.002+08:00

Sighh.. I miss the gentle smiles of everyone in university..
Recently, everyone (includes me) are having a grim face in uni..
It's written on the face, I'm tired.. I'm stress.. I'm tension..
Everyone looks like poker cards..
Some even worse.. The face is telling me "I'm not in a good mood, you better not mess with me.. Or else, I'll blast you apart.."

Even a friend of mine who is always happy the entire day also become gloomy recently..
A few friends of mine who always smile whenever I see them.. also become down as ever..
Walao eh.. Beh TAHAN ah..!!
It's just a 20% test, and everyone is becoming like that..

Sighh.. Why is everyone so tension and stress..
Last time, when I'm having major exams, like UPSR, PMR, SPM.. Or even A-levels..
I swear, the stress condition wasn't that bad as this..
And this is just first semester.. I really don't want to imagine Semester 8..
Shit man.. What hell have I put myself into..

My kind of girl

2009-10-05T09:51:00.002+08:00

Doing this tag.. as a part of updates..

if you're a guy - post this as "my kind of girl"
if you're a girl - post it as "my kind of guy"
to whichever gender you prefer, really.
[I didn't. I is feeling so powerful now.]

* * * * *

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
Appearance stands quite a portion in a relationship..

2. Smart?
Hmm.. Yeah..

3. Preferred age?
Around my age?

4. Preferred height?
Not taller than me.

5. How about sense of humor?
Yes please.. I know I'm a boring person..

6. How about piercings?
Hmm.. Preferably not..

7. Accepts you for who you are?
Of course yes..

8. Pink hair?
Eww.. No..

9. Mushy or no?
No idea..

10. Thin or fat?
Thin..

11. Black, Brown, Yellow or White (skin color)?
As long as its acceptable for my eyes?

12. Long hair or short hair?
I'm okay with both hairstyles. But preferably long..

13. Plastic or metal?
Organic substance? I don't want to date a cyborg..

14. Smells good?
Yes.. but not overdo it..

15. Smoker?
Definitely NO!!!

16. Drinker?
I don't really mind... But alcoholic is unacceptable to me.

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
Hmm.. Not a bad idea..

18. Muscular?
*gulp* Scary...

19. Plays piano?
Hell yeah!!

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
That would be cool..

21. Plays violin?
Oh my.. yes of course.. Then my children can be instrumental..

22. Sings very well?
Yes yes.. Then she can lullaby to me when I'm suffering from insommia..

23. Vain?
No thank you..

24. With glasses?
I like girls with glasses.. Makes them looks very smart and pro..

25. With braces?
It's just temporary.. Wouldnt mind thou..

26. Shy type?
Girls who are too bold and sociable scares me off..

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
Middle line.. Not too rebellious.. Not too good..

28. Active or passive?
Please refer to question 28..

29. Tight or bomb?
Huh huh?

30. Singer or dancer?
Singer..

31. Stunner?
Wow.. That's scary..

32. Hiphop?
Don't really fancy dancers..

33. Earrings?
Yeah.. As long as the earrings are within practical range.

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?
No thank you..

35. Dimples?
huh?

36. Bookworm?
I'm fine with it.. As long as she don't bring her books are read when we are dating..

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
Hmm.. I'm not that expressive..

38. Playful?
Yes.. That would make life even more interesting..

39. Flirt?
Eee.. In appropriate..

40. Poem writer?
That would be a bonus mark..

41. Serious?
Serious when appropriate..

42. Campus crush?
Huh?

43. Painter?
That would be nice..

44. Religious?
Preferably not.. I'm not really religious..

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
That would be fun..

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
That would be fun..

47. Speaks 20 languages?
Linguistic huh.. 20 languages.. Are you kidding me? But.. It would be nice..

48. Loyal or faithful?
BOTH!

49. Good kisser?
Hmm. maybe..

50. Loves children?
Yes..

Specially dedicated to all IMU guys who want to sleep till 8.50am for 9am lecture..

2009-10-02T18:07:00.002+08:00

Don't give up, Zhi Hao

2009-10-01T20:53:00.002+08:00

Exams after exams.. Fight after fight.. Battle after battle..
It's endless..
I'm really tired.. Really really tired.. Can't hold much longer anymore..

That's all you can do?
Zhi Hao.. Don't give up..
Remember what you aim for..
Remember what you desperate for..
Remember what your promise..

By all means, GO AHEAD!!
You are DESTINED to extraordinary~!!

Law of Study

2009-09-30T20:18:00.005+08:00

Background Story:
At 30th September, 2009, there were 2 IMU students, one from Nutrition & Dietetics, named Iris Mok. Another from Bachelor of Science (Pharmacy), named Chi Hau. They were studying about Ideal Gas Law. Boyle's Law, which states Pressure is inversely proportional to Volume. Charles' Law, which states that Pressure is directly proportional to Temperature (T).
At first, Iris mistaken the symbol T in Charles' Law as time. So, which means, Pressure is directly proportional to time.. It made no sense in gas.
The idea came in, she proposed a law, named Iris' Law.
2 hours later, while Chi Hau was having his shower, an idea pop up.
Just like what Archimedes did, discovering a theory in the bathroom.
But the difference is, he didn't run around the street shouting Eureka..
Chi Hau proposed a law, named Chi Hau's Law.
These 2 laws were called Law of Study..

Law of Study
Iris' Law states that Pressure(P) is directly proportional to Time (t).
which means, as time of study increases, pressure experienced by the student increases.

Chi Hau's Law states that Efficiency(E) is inversely proportional to Time (t)
which means, as time of study increases, the efficiency of absorbing knowledge decreases.

By combining this two laws,
A new equation is borned,

PE = kt

P = Pressure experienced by student, E = Efficiency of absorbing knowledge, t = Time of study, k is merely just a constant.

which means, if t is kept constant, P increases will causes E to decreases.

In conclusion, do not pressure yourself too much during study.

Take my blood...

2009-09-29T12:41:00.002+08:00

Today.. I give my blood away..
In other words.. blood donation..
It's a process of giving away your old blood, so that you can produce new blood..
Fresh new blood.. Got it?

Oh well.. Tonight gonna go out to hunt again..
Hunt for blood... *evil grin with two sharp teeth*
Prepare to close your windows or else you will experience yourself at an uncomfortable range from my teeth.. Muahahaha..

Stop dreaming.. or writing your ghost story..
My arm that undergo the blood donation feels very tired.. and experiencing short pain sensation..
Ouch..

Okay.. Time to go and drink milk... To restore my iron..

Raya Break Summary

2009-09-28T08:09:00.006+08:00

18.9.2009 - Anime Hunting.. Went to Gurney Plaza, Midlands and Prangin Mall for anime hunting.. Watched a few..
19.9.2009 - Princess Mononoke20.9.2009 - Seaside outing..
21.9.2009 - Spirtied Away22.9.2009 - Red Box with family
23.9.2009 - Queensbay outing with Steph and Christine
24.9.2009 - Red Box with Joanne, Hui Ting and Zhao Wei
25.9.2009 - Fruit Tart!!

Scattered Chronicles - Code 2509

2009-09-25T09:53:00.002+08:00

Sacrifice sleep to study because want to participate in extra-curricular activities?
Wow.. Girl.. You must be really super to do this.. Say really, I totally solute you..
Even I come back from a 2 hour badminton practice, I was tired like hell.. Totally can't even concentrate to listen to i-lecture after that.. I dropped cheer leading because I can't bear with the consequences after that..
Sorry to say this.. I'm not that interest in cheer leading.. Don't feel the satisfaction for the sacrifice..
Feel like a wet mud bag.. I have problems remember dance move.. I have problem co-ordinate my hands and legs.. I don't want to drag you all down.. I feel like I'm pulling the overall standard down.. that's why I quit..

Extra-currucular activities causes neglection in studies?
I can't deny, extra-curricular activities does take away part of our free time. But it's rewarding.. Satisfaction, Body-building, Experiences..
I wanted to join archery.. But dunno if there is archery in IMU.

Break up of friendship is caused by one party?
One hand can't clap.. Friendship is built by both party and can be destroyed by either party..
It takes two people to build it up but it takes one person to destroy it..
It takes 2 years to build it but it can be crumpled in 2 seconds..
But, in most cases, both party are the root that a friendship is being destroyed..
Unless you enjoy hurting your friends and breaking up the friendship you built.. It doesn't make sense right?
Dear YiZuan, life is not just about being hurt.. Friends come and go.. It's a deniable fact.. Just like Hydrogen.. Sometimes it bonded with other Hydrogen to form H2. Sometimes it bonded with Oxygen to form Water.. As long as it is stable, it form bonds. and water is able to be hydrolysis to form back to H2 and O2.. It's fate that we meet and it is fate that we argue and left each other.. Don't be desperate or misery.. k? You still have me..

Keep low profile to avoid troubles?
It may be true.
If you are able to, rise and shine..
It is not a bad thing to attract attention, if you desire..
It is not a bad thing to outshine your peers.. If you can..
If you are able to survive beneath the spotlights.. Why not?
Being ordinary and lead a normal life..
or Being extraordinary and lead a challenging life..
Choose one.. I rather be the latter one..

Scattered Chronicles - Code 2309

2009-09-23T21:32:00.003+08:00

Today.. I went outing with my a friend that I misses a lot a lot.. And also meet with my god-sis..
Haha.. Don't be oversensitive.. We are just very close friends..
Hmm.. First, I went to fetch Stephanie.. As all my Disted friend knows, I'm a super duber absent minded, direction idiotic driver.. It took me awhile to find Steph's house.. Then she lead the way to Queensbay Mall.. xD

Queensbay.. A mall contains a lot of bad memories for me.. and a lot of good memories with these 2 girls.. Haha.. =D
First was about the skating ring.. Don't ask me why.. I have underdeveloped legs.. So, I literally can't skate at all.. But was dragged into it.. No choice.. Really embarassing..
Second was about I accidentally dropped a glass at Haegen Daz down to the level below.. Nearly hit someone's head..
Third was about I lost my car keys and trapped at there till like 1 in the morning..
So.. Queensbay was sort of a bad luck place to me.. I only went there like 5 times since it opens..
It wasn't much difference since the last time I went with Carol, Ian and Jason.. (somewhere around Nov 08).. I remembered Ian's screaming for mother when being bitten by the fishies..
It did reminds me of a lot of memories.. Got one time.. we arrive there at 2.. but we only managed to get our movie tickets at 9 o clock.. 7 hours of loitering... That time was.. a few friends.. of different groups.. I bought all of them together.. Try to merge them.. But it fail miserably.. Chiang go arcade with his high school buds.. Ian go with Carol.. I was with Steph and Christine (my god-sis)..
This time, we had lunch with Christine who is working in borders.. Then she rushed back to work.. The two of us were just walking around Queensbay from top floor to basement, basement to top floor.. Chatting about our pharmacy course and life.. FYI, she's studying pharmacy in Aimst, that's in Sg Petani.. while I'm studying in IMU, that's in KL.. The environment is totally different.. Hers is at a city surrounded by forest and paddy fields.. while mine is at the Capital City of Kuala Lumpur.. It was fun back then... Before we left, we had Haegen Daz.. We wanted to have the mooncake.. but the pricing.. is way way way way way beyong budget.. RM32 for a mooncake that has a diameter of around 5cm and 3cm thick.. So we decided to have a Chocoholic instead.. I finally understand, why Haegen Daz or Baskin Robin doesnt serve big portion.. The reason is, their ice cream are very high in sugar content.. The first bite was heavenly.. The 15th bite is ok ok.. The 30th bite is ewww... so sweet...

I dropped her home and went back home for my mom's home cooked dinner... =) She cooked my favourite soup today.. Lotus root soup.. Yummy.. I love lotus root soup.. The last time I have it was made by our dear Jamie Kit Wei.. It was nice..

Today is a nice day..

Howl's Moving Castle

2009-09-21T21:11:00.002+08:00

Hehe.. Since I'm back in Penang, I start to got addicted to Miyazaki Hayao's film..
First on shopping spree to buy.. And now craze for it..
After watch, I go and download the whole OST album somemore.. xD
Okay.. Back to the title, Howl's Moving Castle..
The main theme of this film is about love between a girl and a young wizard.. time setting is pre-World War I..
The voice acting were good.. (I mean the original Japanese version.. Japanese film should watch the original japanese voice ma.. Or you can watch Disney's version which is in english..)
It's a really great movie.. Beat any other Disney or Dreamwork's animation..

Princess Mononoke & Spirited Away

2009-09-19T21:23:00.004+08:00

Princess Mononoke.. A story about a war between nature and human civilisation. More of the debate question of "should we harvest from nature". We harvest and kill wild life because of food and daily needs while it seems unfair to the nature.
Great stories and sound effects..

Strongly recommended.

Here's a trailer of it..

Spirited Away.. A story about a little girl "accidentally" went into the world of Gods and Ghosts. And how she made her way out of there with her love, courage and loyalty..

Great storyline, art work and sound effects..

As expected.. From the great director Miyazaki Hayao and music composer, Joe Hisaishi..

A must-watch movie..

Here's a trailer of it..

This is the a performance by Joe Hisaishi

This is the ending theme of Spirited Away

On a shopping spree..

2009-09-19T00:03:00.001+08:00

Believe it or not.. I had been to 3 malls in Penang in one day.. xD
Was hunting for anime..
First, Princess Mononoke.. Then Spirited Away.. Then Howl's Moving Castle.. Then.. Suzumiya Haruhi..
Got my Spirited Away at GP's Speedy.. Then got a box set of Princess Mononoke and Howl at GP's Popular.. Then.. I went to Adventist Hospital to meet my ex-colleague..
After that, I went to Midlands.. To hunt anime.. Well.. It was a failure.. I bought Legend of Condor.. But the quality sucks... wasted RM12..
At night, I went to Prangin Mall.. This time, went to Hong Kong video.. I'm surprised that they have quite a collection there. Got my Suzumiya Haruhi there.. There are 2 version.. 1 is Melancholy of Suzumiya Haruhi.. Another is Melancholy of Suzumiya Haruhi-chan.. I bought both.. xD A little gila liao..
Spent around RM100 on anime today.. Hehe..
I watched Princess Mononoke this evening.. It was a nice movie.. really OMG nice movie.. No wonder they managed to win Oscar awards for it..
The moral of the story is about.. Revenge will eventually engulf you into the demon of darkness..

Back to Penang Island

2009-09-18T10:38:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone..
I arrived here at 11.30 last night.. =D
Penang still so nice as ever..
No dusty air.. No haze.. Fresh cool air..
Hehe.. I will be here in Penang Island till next sunday..
Any plans, people?

Scattered Chronicle - Code 1009

2009-09-10T18:01:00.003+08:00

As the title suggested, scattered chronicle..
It's just some parts of my life.. Random and title-less..

First, my health condition had already recovered to optimum..
Feeling healthy, just that a little tired..
Thanks for the care..

Recently, I was quite fed up with a girl in my "gang"..
Why is it so embarassed to admit that you already have a boy friend..
In a relationship does not equals to "single but unavailable"..
It's a two totally different thing..
The first states that you are taken, while the latter states that you are still single but not ready for a relationship..
Damn.. Till the night, I caught her holding hands with the boy friend at 1 in the MORNING.. It's 1am.. And she's still denying and giving some lame excuses..
Oh well.. It's not like I'm aftering her or like her or whatever..
But.. It's like.. Why do you want to lie on this fundamental relationship status..
Sighh.. I'm really disappointed in you..
Is it really that embarass to declare that you are taken?
Or you try to get another boyfriend and make it 2?
Or you are so horny that you want to attract attention and affection from other boys?
Fine.. Do whatever you want..

Today, I was caught surprised by my organic chemistry lecturer...
My friend asked me something, i was explaining things to her..
I was in a very surprised state and my reflexes fails to help me..
I got my concept all messed up and was insisting on something that is wrong against half of the class.. But my consiousness recover shortly and I have to apologize to the entire class for the wrong answer.. That was so damn embarassing..
That's what happens when you are too confident with your strength..
FYI, that lecturer is my mentor, so he's sort of very "taking care" and paying a lot of attention to me..

Experiments yesterday was totally shit..
It's an experiment where we use ourselves as a test subject..
We are to introduce eletric impulse into our hands to induce twitching of our thumbs..
The computer set up was so "advance" and we all have no idea how to use.
After 3 hours of experiment, we didn't acquire any usable results.
That was so fed up man.. Now we have to copy results from others..
Sighh..

Before I end, Happy Birthday, Su Anne..
I wanted to say.. I didn't know you for long, but you are a really nice girl to befriend with.. =D

The worst 24 hours in my IMU life..

2009-09-07T20:41:00.002+08:00

Yesterday's goal fail miserably..
Because after I finish the post, I need to went to photostat shop to photostat our moral project slides.. FYI, it's 1050 pages.. So it took us 2 hours to wait it to be done.. After that, then I start read a little..
Then my housemate invites me to his friend's birthday celebration at MidValley..
Since there is 4 of us, we took a cab there, which cost us RM12 per cab..
Quite reasonable..
Then shop awhile..
Okay, here's the nightmare began..
I dunno is it the steak that I took for dinner was not well prepared..
I think I got a food poisoning.. I vomited once at the train station.. The worst thing is, the train..
We wanted to take the commuter back, since there are 5 of us now.. Cab can't fit..
I was like so sick there.. and what happened?
The commuter got delayed by 45 minutes.. It's like, it says it will arrive by 15 minutes, then announcement, delay for 30 minutes, then delay again for another 15 mintues.. When the commuter came, it was too crowded, we can't get onto the commuter, have to wait for the next. The next train is 1 hour later.. We were so fed up, then we decide to take the cab. Then we took the cab, the driver let us squeeze with a surcharge of RM5.. We have no choice, if we don't squeeze, another cab wil cost us another RM15.. I was totally sick back then.. Vomited again in the cab..
Then came back, I forced a glass of water to induce vomit.. To clear off my stomach..
That night was the worst night ever..
Due to all the vomitting, I severely lose water and food..
So when I woke up at like 2am in the morning, my stomach was much better.. but still hurts.. I forced myself a piece of plain bread and water, then took a stomach medication..
In the morning, I was like dizzy, cold feet, cold hands and extremely hungry..
Managed to eat a little despite a very bad appetite..
Then still managed to went for my gen chem practical.
Luckily it's a short practical and not that energy-consuming.
So after practical, I rushed home.. To take a nap. My head was very heavy that time..
After a nap, my head still hurts, so I took panadols after having my lunch.. Thanks Wye Li for buying me a Bubur Ayam from McD..
After lunch, I was lying on the bed, I can't even stand still for 5 minutes, start to get dizzy. So I lie on bed.. It's gotten a little better..
So again, I force myself to class.. With a promise to my body.. I will take a rest when I came back..
The weird thing is, I felt lot better in uni, after seeing my friends and lecturers.. better than I lying on the bed.
Once I return to my room after class, all the fatigue came back.. It's like the body demanding me to fulfilled the promise..
So I slept for like 3 hours..

Now feeling much better, at least can do some work..

Anyway, I just received from Academic Affair Department (AAD), English 2 & 3 is cancelled! So means, those of us that took moral and malaysian study to escape the english classes can drop our moral and malaysian study!

Woohoo!!

It's Sunday again..

2009-09-06T13:20:00.002+08:00

I can't believe it.. It's Sunday again..
*stretch stretch* *yawn*
What a good night (or should I say morning) sleep..
After the midnight raid.. I slept at 4.30am.. managed to catch up my biological science to almost the latest chapter.. 2 more to go.. and my biological science note book is updated..
I feel quite relieve thou.. At least I'm progressing..

Anyway, talk about sunday..
Seriously, I hate Sundays..
First, It's monday again tomorrow...
Second, Having meals here is a total headache in sundays.. The mamaks were off in sundays.. So I have no where to find food.. except my cupboard.. Which is some carbohydrate product with a sprinkle of Monosodium Glutamate.. In case, you don't get the point, it's instant noodles.. One of the staple food for me at here.. Been having like 3~4 times a week
I know.. It's not a good thing.. But..
First and most important, It's economical..
Going out to Carrefour to eat will take me RM7 in transportation.. and meals there will be like at least RM10..
So might as well cook noodles..less than RM2 per meal..
If were to say cook,
from what I experienced, cooking doesn't really cheap at all..
All the ingridience that are used.. I tried calculate.. It's even expansive than eat outside..
Take an example, Normal Tomato Spegetti..
Noodles will cost around RM1.. Tuna will be RM3.. Sauce will be around RM4.. added up wil be around RM8.. and it's so time consuming.. Cook one meal will take me around like 1 hour to prepare and eat..

Unless you want to eat bread with butter everyday..

Okay.. Back to study..
Aim of today:
1. Finish up the two chapters of biological science
2. Read through the lab manual for tomorrow
3. Read through Gen Chem and Human Biology lecture notes
4. Read through Moral textbook for tomorrow's moral quiz..

Tag by cheng yee..

2009-09-03T20:25:00.003+08:00

You've been tagged, you have the honor of copying all these goofy questions, writing your own response, and tagging 25 other victims. You have to tag me so really you just need 24 more people. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you - but not in a creepy stalker kind of way.

1. What time did you get up this morning?
► 11.10am..

2. How do you like your steak?
► Not really..

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
► Transformer: Rise of the Fallen

4. What is your favorite TV show?
► I don't watch TV

5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
► Maldives

6. What did you have for breakfast?
► I had brunch.. Because it's already so late..

7. What is your favorite cuisine?
► Malay Rice..

8. What foods do you dislike?
► Majority of the green vegetables you can find in a market..

9. Favorite Place to Eat?
► Hawker Stalls in Penang Island..

10. Favorite dressing?
► I don't like salads..

11.What kind of vehicle do you drive?
► Used to drive Hyundai Accent.. But not in KL.. I scare I will lost..

12. What are your favorite clothes?
► Old T-shirts and shorts..

13. Where would you visit if you had the chance?
► Some Islands in Pacific Ocean..

14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full?
► Does it matters? It's just a matter of presenting it..

15. Where would you want to retire?
► Penang Island of course.. Born there die there..

16. Favourite time of day?
► Starting to love midnight hours..

17. Where were you born?
► Penang Island

18. What is your favourite sport to watch?
► I don't watch sports..

19. Who do you think will not tag you back?
► Cheng yee? since she already do..

20. Person you expect to tag you back first?
► I have no idea..

21. Who are you most curious about their responses to this?
► Hmm.. YiZuan!!

22. Bird watcher?
► Not interested..

23. Are you a morning person or a night person?
► Night..

24. Do you have any pets?
► No.. But I want to have a kitty..

25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share?
► Nothing exciting..

26. What did you want to be when you were little?
► I remembered.. I want to be a cashier! I thought the cash in the drawer is his..

27. What is your best childhood memory?
► Don't remember any..

28. Are you a cat or dog person?
► Cat.. i have god-phobia..

29. Are you married?
► Nope.

30. Always wear your seat belt?
► Yeah..

31. Been in a car accident?
► Twice.. but those were just minor knocks..

32. Any pet peeves?
► What's that?

33. Favorite Pizza Toppings?
► Olive + Peperoni and some chickent meat..

34. Favorite Flower?
► Iris.. Sakura..

35. Favorite ice cream?
► Blueberry.. Chocolate.. vanilla..

36. Favorite fast food restaurant?
► Downstairs Mamak..

37. How many times did you fail your driver's test?
► 1..

38. From whom did you get your last email?
► Wye Li

39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
► Why the hell I want to waste my money...

40. Do anything spontaneous lately?
► no idea..

41. Like your job?
► I have to love my job.. or else.. life will be miserable..

42. Broccoli?
► No..

43. What was your favorite vacation?
► Maldives Island?

44. Last person you went out to dinner with?
► I bungkus Burger back to my room to eat write online..

45. What are you listening to right now?
► Nothing..

46. What is your favorite color?
► Sky Blue, white, black..

47. How many tattoos do you have?
► 0.. Why do I need it..

48. How many are you tagging for this quiz?
► 1-Cheng Yee..

49. What time did you finish this quiz?
► 20:45 hours (GMT+8)

50. Coffee Drinker?
► No..

I have come to realize

2009-09-02T17:52:00.003+08:00

Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note completing the 36 "I've come to realize" statements. At the end, choose the friends you want to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want tot know more about you or I knew you way back when and am interested in what life has taught you!

1. I've come to realize that my chest-size. . .
is normal.. (What do you expect from a guy's chest-size?)

2. I've come to realize that my job(s). . .
is just about to begin..

3. I've come to realize that when I'm driving alone. . .
I need to get to my destination asap..

4. I've come to realize that I need. . .
a girl friend..

5. I've come to realize that I have lost. . .
a lot of things..

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when. . .
things just don't turn up as planned..

7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk. . .
the sun will rise from the west..

8. I've come to realize that money. . .
is depleting..

9. I've come to realize that certain people. . .
made me annoyed and fed up..

10. I've come to realize that I'll always. . .
need someone..

11. I've come to realize that my sibling(s). . .
are alright..

12. I've come to realize that my mum. . .
is missing me every single day..

13. I've come to realize that cell phones. . .
are vital for my survival..

14. I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning. . .
I slept quite a lot last night..

15. I've come to realize that last night before I went to sleep. . .
I was thinking about her..

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking. . .
of how to let go of her..

17. I've come to realize that my dad. . .
is always be on my side.

18. I've come to realize that when I get on Facebook. . .
I'll turn to MouseHunt as the first thing I do..

19. I've come to realize that today. . .
is boring..

20. I've come to realize that tonight. . .
I gotta start revising..

21. I've come to realize that tomorrow. . .
I will have my debate competition..

22. I've come to realize that I really want to. . .
take a break..

23. I've come to realize that the person most likely to respond to this is. . .
Cheng Yee loves tag..

24. I've come to realize that life. . .
can be miserable and desperate..

25. I've come to realize that this weekend. . .
will be 2 days of studying..

26. I've realized the best music to listen to when I am upset. . .
is Ride of the Valkyries.. I'm gonna be Hitler any time soon..

27. I've come to realize that my friends. . .
are nice people.. I really want to be with them..

28. I've come to realize that this year. . .
is gonna be a fun year..

29. I've come to realize that my ex. . .
is still the same as always..

30. I've come to realize that maybe I should. . .
start on preparing on tomorrow's tutorials..

31. I've come to realize that I love. . .
to have a close friend who I can always tag around with..

32. I've come to realize that I don't understand. . .
what is playing in her mind..

33. I've come to realize my past. . .
makes what I am now..

34. I've come to realize that parties. . .
are fun.. if your friends were a bunch of crazy people..

35. I've come to realize that I'm totally terrified. . .
about what's going on around..

36. I've come to realize that my life. . .
is very taxing..

I'm tired..

2009-08-31T20:02:00.001+08:00

Man.. I'm tired..
Tonight gotta sleep early.. Have class at 8.30am tomorrow..

YiZuan, gambateh in your trials..
Chiang, Have a pleasant journey in Ireland..

I'm staying with an ass hole..

2009-08-31T13:29:00.002+08:00

As you all know.. My working housemate is a total ass hole..
Ian, your ass-holism is totally no fight with him. He's on a higher level..

When I first met him, from the way he talks and the way he presents himself..
His personality somehow assembles me.. We are quite alike..
I thought we will be able to make good friends.. or at least comfortable staying under one ceiling..
But after some time later, I realised.. He's an amplification of every single negative traits in me.. Loner.. Extreme low EQ..
I admit I'm a loner, but at least I still apprieciate company..
My mom had been complaint a lot about my low EQ.. His is a differet level of it..
And he's a little psycho.. Give you an example,
If your housemate is verry noisy in his room.. Till you can't stand it anymore..
What will you do?
Normal human responce will be go to his room and tell him to turn down the volume..
This guy's responce is bang the doors and throw the chairs.. that produce an extreme loud noise.. and start smoke.. To harass us.. Convey a message that "I'm a psycho, you two better not mess with me. You two better be quiet or I will throw you down the balcony.."

Young adults should be full of outings right? or at least meet customers or work..
But this guy spent his whole weekend.. Sit in the living area.. Open some random channel on TV and read his magazines or newspapers.. For like entire day..
He has no one to date.. no friend to attend to.. and no client to meet up with..
I sort of pity him for it..

For a man at his late 20s.. Still single.. Stil not own a house yet.. Nor do he has his car.. I find it.. He's a big fat loser..

Anyway, staying with him. He sort of play a role of reminder to me..
Reminds me to study hard.. and don't let my negative traits manifest..
So that I won't end up like him.. A desperate loser..

Somehow, his life also raise my confident level.. I feel that I'm much superior than him.. At least, I do not need to desperately conserve my environment and refuse to live outside my box..

Wait a minute, why am I comparing myself to an ass hole..?

Quite a sad story.. an adult with working experience is looked down by people who are much junior compared to him..

Goodbye, my friend..

2009-08-30T13:33:00.002+08:00

It's so hard to say goodbye to a friend who had been with you for so long..
Seriously, even after so many goodbye had been made..
First to Cubix.. Then Carol.. Then Ian.. Now Chiang..
I still don't like that feeling!! I'm kinda feel sick to even think of it..

Oh ya.. Have a pleasant journey.. I will miss you..
Don't you dare to even attempt to forget me.. I will haunt and stalk you like a ghost once you got back if you try to..

Anyway, unlike the others, I know.. sooner or later.. We will have a high chance of working in the same fronts.. for the same goal... To provide health care service to the public..

One day, we will work together.. And that time, I will be your superior.. WAHAHA..
and I will earn more than you!!
Once we pharmacist got my dispensing rights.. Our income will rival you doctors..

Before I end, remember.. To get a Irish girl friend back.. =D Irish makes good butter cakes and cookies.. xD Eurasian kids are more beautiful and smarter!

P/S: You still owe me a korean BBQ lunch!!

Happy Birthday!

HP Printers

2009-08-30T13:24:00.002+08:00

My dad just bought me a new HP 3-in-1 printers..
The printing quality is good.. scanning to very good as well..
Just that the way HP engineers configure their product is totally stupid..
Among all the brands I used before.. HP's programme system is one of the most retarded ever..
I think when they programme it, they didn't use their common sense..

I try printing double sided..
After I press print, then a message will come out.. To tell you how to insert the papers to print.. It is suppose to be after your odd pages is printed out, then you press continue, then only it prints the even pages.. Guess what? My computer stop responding if I didn't press the continue within 5 seconds the thing pops up.. Even when my odd pages haven't even being printed.. So I have calculate the exact papers I need and put it nicely.. Once it finish prints.. I have to faster take it out and turn it over and feed the paper in back.. Any procedure is left out.. I will have to tear the papers and re-print.. Shit man.. It's so troublesome..

A personality quiz results...

2009-08-27T20:40:00.000+08:00

Try this quiz at: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

A laugh out loud video clip about Islamic Banking by Namewee

2009-08-26T00:10:00.001+08:00

Slow slow shitty connections..

2009-08-24T21:39:00.001+08:00

When I was in Penang.. I was complaining about streamyx's slow connection..
When I came here.. I just realised.. P1 WiMax is even worse than that..
First thing, it's unstable... altough sometimes.. it's speed is like crazily fast..
But most of the time, the speed can fight with our old Jaring dial-up or TMNet dial-up..

Shit man.. I thought P1 was a good ISP.. But it turns up..
Sighh.. really disappointed..

I thought KL will have a better internet speed than Penang..
mana tau...

A very sweaty facebook apps predictation..

2009-08-23T17:40:00.000+08:00

According to http://www.friendshipstats.com I have 407 friends, 287 more than average. 62% are male, 38% are female. 189 are single, 55 are dating or married. If I contracted a deadly variant of flu, I would likely infect 12 people, 2 of whom would d...ie. When I share something on Facebook, it is typically viewed by 26 people. If I died today, an estimated 504 people would try to attend my funeral. Based on my Facebook profile, I have a 92% probability of getting married. I am likely to earn US$3.6 million and have 2.4 children over my lifetime. Calculate your own stats at http://www.friendshipstats.com.

Tag.. (Taken from Ripalo's fb note)

2009-08-22T14:04:00.001+08:00

1.Who was your FIRST prom date?
I went for prom last year.. without a partner..

2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love?
Yeah.. She's my god-sis now..

3. What was your 1st alcoholic drink?
I'm still a virgin when comes to this..

4. What was your FIRST job?
Part time fundraiser in Adventist Hospital

5. What was your FIRST car?
I still haven't own any car yet..

6. Who was the FIRST person to text you today?
DiGi... =.=

7. Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning?
Mavis..

8. Who was your FIRST grade teacher?
Mdm Teh Cai Fen..

9. Where did you go on your FIRST plane ride?
Medan..

10. Who is your FIRST best friend & do you still talk?
Chiu Mu.. back when we are only 7-year-old.. Nah.. Lost contact with him since I moved to first class when I was 10, while he was in 3rd class..

11. Where was your FIRST sleep over?
Stallion Service Apartment.

12. Who was the FIRST person you talked to today?
Pi Lip, my housemate.. when I just woke up and got out of my room. He was outside..

13. Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time?
My Xiao Yi i think..

14. What was the FIRST thing you did this morning?
Check at the time.. whether I still entitle to sleep more or not..

15. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to?
at PISA.. that time.. Guang Liang Pin Kuan were there.. for a charity concert..

16. FIRST tattoo?
Never got one..

17. FIRST piercing?
Why do I need a piercing..

18. FIRST foreign country you've been to?
Singapore..

19. FIRST movie you remember seeing?
Bug's Life..

20. When was your FIRST detention?
Does after school extra class counts as detention? When I was first grade, my chinese was severely below average.. So my chinese teacher gave me after school tuitions..

21. What was the FIRST state (city) you lived in?
Air Itam, Penang Island..

22. Who was your FIRST roommate?
My brother?

23. If you had one wish?
I wish everyone I love and everyone who love me to be happy always.. =)

24. What is something you would learn if you had the chance?
Gu Zheng.. (A chinese orchestra instrument)

25. Who was your FIRST KISS and where?
I still have my first kiss..

Anyone who feels like doing it, go ahead.. No copyright..

Getting to know each other!

2009-08-21T12:23:00.001+08:00

Rules: To do this, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your title as "Getting to know each other!", tag 25 people including me (tagging is done in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.

1. What time did you get up this morning?
8.35am.. Suppose to be up at 8.15.. but.. my housemate hog the toilet till 8.35..

2. How do you like your steak?
I'm not a fan of steak..

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
Transformer 2: Rise of the fallen

4. What is your favorite TV show now?
I don't watch TV..

5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
Hmm.. Penang Island..

6. What did you have for breakfast?
Was suppose to have mash potato that Kit Wei made.. But due to the stupid housemate.. I gotta rush for class without get to eat..

7. What is your favorite cuisine?
I dunno what's the name..

8. What food do you dislike?
Bittergourd.. It's so gross..

9. Favorite place to eat?
In front of the computer..

10. Favorite dressing?
Err.. What's that?

11.What kind of vehicle do you drive?
Was driving Hyundai Accent.

12. What are your favorite clothes?
My slacks and T-shirts?

13. Where would you visit if you had the chance?
Antartica.. Although it may cost my life, but I think it's a place that I must go before I die..

14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full?
1/2 empty..

15. Where would you want to retire?
Pulau Redang..

16. Favorite time of day?
Dawn..

17. Where were you born?
Penang Island..

18. What is your favorite sport to watch?
I don't watch sports..

19. Who do you think will not tag you back?
No idea..

22. Bird watcher?
Not that free duh..

23. Are you a morning person or a night person?
Was a morning.. But slowly becoming a night now..

24. Do you have any pets?
No. But I hope to have fishes in my room..

25. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share?
Err.. My invoice just came out! My total course fee is RM137K++

26. What did you want to be when you were little?
Cashier.. I thought the money that they get is theirs..

27. What is your best childhood memory?
I catch worms at the drain and catch ants at the trees..

28. Are you a cat or dog person?
I have dog-phobia..

29. Are you married?
I don't even have a girlfriend yet..

30. Do you always wear your seat belt?
Yeah

32. Any pet peeves?
Apa tu?

33. Favorite pizza topping(s)?
Tuna, cheese, olives..

34. Favorite flower(s)?
Sakura.

35. Favorite ice-cream(s)?
Chocolate..

36. Favorite fast food restaurant?
Sakae Sushi

37. How many times did you fail your driver's test?
once..

38. From whom did you get your last e-mail?
Myself.. xD

39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
No idea..

40. Did anything spontaneous lately?
Charity home visit presentation..

41. Like your job?
I'm a student..

42. Broccoli?
I don't like..

43. Kids?
Of course.. I love kids..

44. Last person you went out for dinner with?
Pi Lip..

45. What are you listening to right now?
Not listening to any..

46. What is your favorite color?
Sky Blue

47. How many tattoos do you have?
0

48. How many are you tagging for this quiz?
0

49. What time did you finish this quiz?
12.14pm

50. Coffee Drinker?
I'm a tea drinker..

Tag of Sarcasm..

2009-08-20T22:44:00.003+08:00

Sarcasm's my defense against stupid.
Objective: Are you mean and sarcastic? Have you ever answered people ‘meanly’ and sarcastically? If yes, show us how mean and sarcastic you are! If no, then you should try at least once in your life with this note.

Rule: Respond to these as sarcastic/mean as you could.
(YR stands for Your Response.)

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If an annoying person says:

1) I am cute
YR: Really?!

2) I am the most beautiful/handsome
YR: Shit.. Something must be wrong with your mentality..

3) See, everyone likes me because I am rich and famous!
YR: Shut up.. Rich brat..

4) Unlike you, I am perfectly multi-skilled. I do everything very well from sports to academic thingy…
YR: I don't give a damn about that..

5) You don’t know me? I am a Bruneian artist; I have albums.
YR: Playing joget to the Brunei sultan everyday?
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If an annoying pretty woman says:

1) I know you like me.
YR: Are you ok?

2) What are you looking at? I am not interested in you!
YR: You think I am?

3) Sorry, you are nice but seriously not my type!
YR: Did I say you are my type?

4) UNLESS you are rich, don’t dream that I will get a ride with you!
YR: I rather let a pig get a ride with me..

5) Look, I am pretty; I can make people hate you!
YR: Go ahead.. "pretty" bitch..
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If an annoying extremely ugly woman/man says:

1) I think you and I can make a good couple.
YR: *gulp* You must be retarded..

2) May I have your cell phone number? Please please please?
YR: Why are you so desperate..

3) Hi, wanna hang out? I want you to be with me the whole night…
YR: Sorry.. I need to accompany my pet turtle..

4) What do you like about me?
YR: Since when I said I like you..

5) I want you to say that I am pretty/handsome and you like me sooooo much!
YR: Why not you just record your voice, then use the DJ programme to make it don't sound like you.. and play it..

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If your enemy says:

1) Hi bitch!
YR: Hi.. My son..

2) You smell like shit!
YR: You sure you clean your nose this morning?

3) I know you hate me because I am much better than you!
YR: Oh ya.. That's your retarded point of view..

4) What an ugly creature you are!
YR: Anyway, don't you remember you are my son?

5) I am going to kick your ass in this race for sure!
YR: As in you can..

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If your annoying ex says:

1) I still love you...
YR: Sorry.. Don't make me hurt you further..

2) I know you still love me!
YR: I would love you as a friend if you don't behave this way..

3) Please, go back with me honey/hubby…
YR: Wake up and face the reality.. girl..

4) Please call me...
YR: I'll try.. someday..

5) The break up hurt me so much…
YR: Sorry..

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If an annoying salesperson says:

1) Wow! You are so pretty/handsome!
YR: Aww.. You are such a sweet talker..

2) Seriously, I used this product and I've changed!
YR: Glad to hear that.. Keep it up..

3) We are giving a discount up to 50%!
YR: Oh really?? I was expecting 90% discount..

4) This one is good sir/madam. Buy sir/madam, buy…
YR: If you it to be sold, then show me that it's good..

Anyway interested can do this tag..

Sunway Pyramid outing..

2009-08-19T21:20:00.003+08:00

Today.. I went to Sunway Pyramid with a batchmate, Iris and housemate, Pi Lip..
So.. we arrived at around 11.30am.. Had our brunch at A&W..
Then we go arcade awhile..
Then we go red box.. Haha.. xD
3 people with 3 microphone.. We sang for like 3 hours nonstop..
Damned.. It was stress relieving.. But really tired..
It was a fun outing..

But.. after that.. everything back to square one.. Outdated revisions.. Housemate problem.. Everything is not solved.. and I'm out of time!

Shit.. I never feel so fucked up before..

Oh ya.. I met Cheng Yee in Pyramid just now..

Tagged by Yoke Shan..

2009-08-15T20:49:00.000+08:00

RULES: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to copy-paste this note, and answer all the questions. At the end, choose people to be tagged - including the person who tagged you.

ABC About You Questions:
A - AVAILABLE: Yes
B - BIRTHDAY: 16th November
C - CRUSHING ON: a girl..
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Spritzer Mineral Water
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: Ian Gooi
F - FAVORITE SONG: You raise me up (Japanese Version) - Lena Park
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: Gummy Worms
H- HOMETOWN: George Town
I - IN LOVE WITH: nothing at the moment..
J - JUGGLE: My water bottle
K - KILLED SOMEONE: No..
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: 16 hours.. from Penang to Mersing
M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR:Chocolate
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 2
O - ONE WISH: I wish.. There's someone who can always be with me when I need her
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: Tayyz "You don't come here in 1 minute time, you gonna do this on your own!"
R- REASON TO SMILE: Your smile is so gentle..
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: You raise me up (Japanese Version) - Lena Park
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 6.00am
V - VEGETABLE(S): Bean sprout
W - WORST HABIT: procrastination
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: Never had X-ray before
Y – YOYOS ARE: impossible for me.
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Scorpio

Random Questions About You:
Spell your name without vowels: chw ch h
What color do you wear most?: dark blue
What are you listening to?: zhong guo hua - S.H.E
Are you happy with your life right now?: No..
What is your favorite class in school/college? General Chemistry
When do you start back at school/college?: 13th June 2009
Are you outgoing?: Yeah.. If my pals are going with me.. and I have no worries about my studies..
Favorite pair of shoes?: Black Leather Shoes
Where do you wish you were right now? Pulau Redang

THE CANS:
Can you dance? No.. I'm a wooden block
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth? No
Can you whistle? : No.
Write with both hands?: No
Walk with your toes curled : Yeah//

THE DO'S:
Do you believe there is life on other planets? Yes
Do you believe in miracles? No.. I define it as luck..
Do you believe in magic? No
Love at first sight? Yeah.. But that feeling disappeared at second sight..
Do you think there's a Satan? No.. Satan is stupid egg?
Do you believe in Santa? No..
Do you know how to swim? Yeah.. at least can move in water..
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows? I can't even take on bittergourd..

THE HAVES:
Have you ever been on a plane? Yes
Have you ever asked someone out? Yeah
Have you ever been asked out by someone? Ya
Have you ever been to the ocean? Sea.. yes, Ocean.. No..
Have you ever painted your nails? Don't have time for such rubbish..

THE WHATS:
What is the temperature outside? 30 degree celcius I suppose?
What radio station do you listen to? Ai FM
What was the last restaurant you ate at? Some chicken rice restaurant in Endah Parade..
What was the last thing you bought? Some grocery from Carrefore..
Who was the last person you took a picture of? A band of runners in the debate competition..

CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out? Yes..
Ever cried yourself to sleep? No..
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder? I cry on my pillow..
Ever cried over the opposite sex? No..
Do you cry when you get an injury? Yes.. Once.. I spilled hot water on myself back at 9 yrs old?
Do certain songs make you cry? Yeah.. Island Away by Karen Kong..

HAPPY SECTION.
Are you a happy person? Not really..
What can make you happy? A gentle smile from a friend..
Do you wish you were happier? Of course yes..
Can music make you happy? Sometimes..

LOVE SECTION.
How many times have you had your heart broken? 2 I think..
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them? Love yourselves before you can love her.. I'm the selfish type..

LOOK AT ME.
What is your current hair color? black
Current piercings?: No.. Why the hell I need piercing..
Have any tattoos? No..
Eye color?: Dark brown with sky blue colour iris' border

IN A GIRL/GUY
Favorite eye color: Sky Blue
Short or long hair: short and long hairs has their charm..
Height: not higher than me..
Best clothing : Formal.. I find them very smart..

HAVE YOU EVER.
Been to jail:No
Mooned someone: No...
Thrown up in a store: No..
Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today: Yeah
Gone skinny dipping: No..

THIS OR THAT.
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's
Single or Group Dates: Single
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Strawberries or Blueberries: Blueberries
Meat or Veggies: Meat
TV or Movie: Movie
Guitar or Drums? Drums
Adidas or Nike: Nike
Chinese or Mexican: Chinese
Cheerios or Corn Flakes: Corn flakes
Pie or Cake: cake

Anyone who feels like do this tag, you may do so..

Greetings from IMU e-labs..

2009-08-14T11:15:00.002+08:00

As the name suggested.. I'm in IMU's e-lab..
For the sake of update.. I'm kinda out of things to write..
Other than mourning and complaints, I guess most of you all are sick reading to my mourning and complaints..

Okay.. I just finish my biological science lab lesson. It finishes early.. My next class is 2.45pm.. which means I have so much free time.. Maybe I should get my lunch and go back my unit to take a rest or do some light revision..

My next class is human biology.. today we will have a lecture about cell damage..
The slides are kinda gross.. Eww.. Starting was okay.. but the last few slides.. were puke-inducing..
Then after that is english.. Boring.........
I hate language classes.. Feels like being cheated.. I thought I don't need to take english class when I have my IELTS and MUET done.. But it turns out to be.. Sighh..

That's all for now people.. Have a nice day..

Complaints and mourning..

2009-08-12T22:38:00.003+08:00

Seriously, I'm dead tired now..

It's not like I don't want to study.. But I really don't have that stamina and determination to study any further..

I really don't feel like doing anything.. Even gaming.. Last time, back in college and high school, I use to straight on the computer and start gaming once I reach home.. But now.. I don't even have that energy to game.. I downloaded Ragnarok Online, Maple Story, Seal Online.. These are games that I used to get addicted to and love it so much.. But once I open the game, I close it the next 5 minutes. Really don't feel like playing them anymore..
Even to hang out, I also don't have that mood to go out.. Think of the transport problem and the piling up works.. I rather stay at home.. Shit..! It's KL.. people.. A place which has loads of shopping malls and fun.. But it doesn't attract my attention and excitement to even go out.. Even night market, my place here have 4 night markets in a week. I never been to any of them and it's like the 5th week?
Not to say sports, my physical strength and stamina really gone down like shit.. I can't even do a full pump.. Imagine how weak I am now? I start panting even to do 5 sit-ups.. What the hell is wrong with me..

Bah.. I really wish I can have a rechargable battery inside my body.. where I can just charging myself while work.. and work OT without feeling tired..

Damned.. I really need a pushing force..
Someone or something who can really motivates me up..
Release the devil that had long asleep inside me..

Maybe I really need a girl friend..
Damned.. aren't males are said to be the "stronger" sex..
But why are we being so dependent on the "weaker" sex for motivation?

Mom's Nag..

2009-08-11T21:27:00.000+08:00

Oh my.. I started to miss my mother..

Experiement 001: Does our shit made of solely leftover indigestive stuff?

2009-08-11T16:32:00.002+08:00

Introduction:
Shit is not an excretory product but rather disposing of leftover of the food we taken in. Things that we can't digest and absorb.. For instance, fiber. Everything we taken in are nutrients that have to be digest and absorbed. So.. Theoretically, there shouldn't be any leftover if you doesn't take in indigestible product like fiber.

This experiment is designed to check whether if a person won't shit if he doesn't take in any fibre..

Aim:
To investigate the efficiency level of a human in digest and absorb nutrient

Hypothesis:
There shouldn't be any shit produced by the human

Constant Variables: Life style of the human
Manipulated Variables: Food that is taken in
Responding Variables: Weight of shit

Materials and apparatus:
Healthy human, lemon, salt, glucose drink, meat, butter, milk, eggs, sugar, measuring balance, big collecting container, supplements pills.

Procedure:
Part 1: To get rid of leftover items in the gut.
1. The human is starved for 36 hours, only provide water to the human.
2. After 36 hours, the human is fed with lemon juice + salt which will induce diarrhea
3. This part is to clean the gut from any other items.

Part 2: Eat!
1. The human is fed with glucose drink as a energy source, meat, eggs, sugar as protein source, butter as fat source and supplement pills as vitamin and mineral source.
2. Collect the shit produced in the time frame of 1 week.

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This experiment is conducted by professionals. Don't try this at home.

P/S: If you are really curious, you can try it on yourselves and report to me on the results.. *wink*

xP Just for laugh.. Was really stressed up and my wild imaginations and ideas start swarm my head..

Marriage plan..

2009-08-10T23:44:00.004+08:00

Stolen from Cheng Yee

1. How old are you?
19.

2. Are you single?
Yes.. Still waiting nucleophiles to binds with me..

3. At what age do you think you'll get married?
27.. I hope..

4. Do you think you'll be marrying the person you are with now?
You mean my crush? Hope so?

5. If not, who do you want to marry??

6. Who will be your bridesmaid & best man??
Bridesmaid: Jamie.. perhaps? Best man: My housemate! Seet Pilip..

7. Do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
Beach weddings sounds romantic.. But with a little mix with traditional will be perfect..

8. Where do you plan to go on honeymoon?
Maldives.. I dreamt going there to holiday..

9. How many guests do you think you'll invite?
Hmm.. Depends on my bride.. Whether she loves solitude or company..

10. Will that include your exes?
I'm still a virgin when comes to pakto..

11. How many layers of cake do you want?
I'll leave these minor preparations to my bride.. She will make decision on it..

12. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
Evening.. Got sunset.. After that got moon and stars as our withness of our eternal love..

13. Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding.
Marriage d'amor?

14. Do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon,fork and knife?
Normal of course..

15. Champagne or red wine?
No idea.. Don't like any of it..

16. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
Right after of course.. Forge the metal when it's hot!

17. Money or household items?
Money.. With money, I can buy household items..

18. How many kids would you like to have?
4 should be enough.. 2 boy, 2 girls.. 1 eldest sister and 1 youngest sister..

19. Will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD?
Of course yes!

20. Whose wedding plan would you like to know next?
OOI HUAH CHIANG!!! aka Crossburn.. It would be interesting to find out..

Tired and busy life..

2009-08-07T16:07:00.002+08:00

Life in IMU Pharmacy is not really not for newbs..
I finally understand why they set the entry requirement higher than Medicine..
The life here is totally hectic and madness..

Imagine that.. we need to revise through all the topics in all Pre-U.. To standardise everyone's basic knowledge before moving on to PHARMACY.. Now we are like having Pre-Pharmacy..
and it's really very tough.. And we are doing it in 3 and a half months..

Are you saying 11 months of A-levels is for abnormal human and 8 months A-Levels is for God-ly people.. Think again? What I'm experience now is totally hell..

Everyone is starting to show their tiredness and mourning and complaints.. You can see it very clearly with their complaints in IMU forums..

I no doubt, not that godly.. I'm really feeling very tired now..
But I shall not fail.. By any means necessary..
No matter what's the procedure, as long as it achieve the same result without harming others.. Then it is a good way..

I wanted to thank Ms Loo and Ms Marisa.. You prepared me really well.. Sometimes, I really feel so proud of myself when people start to ask questions and I know those answers very well..
Especially during lab lessons.. I can achieve better results than others from the same bench as me.. Due to those precaution steps you all taught me..

A meaningful and tiring day..

2009-08-01T21:12:00.006+08:00

Today is 1st of August, 2009. Birthday of Ian Gooi and Ms Marisa Khoo.. Happy Birthday!!!

Today afternoon, I went for charity home visit to Hope House in Petaling Jaya.. with a group assign by counsellor.. consist of a total of 45 people consist of Nursing students and BPharm students..
We departure at 1pm and reach out destination at 2pm.
We were welcomed by the kids by noises all around..
Some of us in charge of cleaning the place, while some in charge of entertaining the kids..
I'm one of the entertainers..
The kids.. Some are quiet; some are energetic; some are really mischievous..
All of them have a really cute and innocent look.
But within their eyes, I can feel.. they have a really secretive background which we musn't know..
Especially those that are quiet.. What they had been through.. I do not know..

I'm in charge of playing games with the kids.. But they are so so so naughty.. It is just near impossible to give instruction or get their corporations..
We had a really tough time trying to control them..

The only time when we are really high and play together is when the music is on as shown in the video above..

And here's a few pictures I took with some of the kids..
I like her the most.. She's so cute........
Not to say this 1 as well.. She's very cute as well..

Had dinner with relatives in Japanese Restaurant.. =)

2009-07-31T20:35:00.002+08:00

離島 (island away)
詞:黃明志 Lyrics: Huang Ming Zhi
曲:張捷惟 Song: Zhang Jie Wei
Director: Huang Ming Zhi (The one write Negarakuku)

靠坐在陌生的床牆角還擱著行囊
Sitting on the foreign bed, the luggage sitting in the corner
窗外的霓虹燈搶了月亮的光
the neon lights outside the window shining brighter the the moon light
來自大海的方向從地圖的另一端
coming from the sea, from the other side of the map(world)
背著夢想也帶著揮不去的牽掛
carrying my dreams, and also bearing the longings that I can't leave behind

風啊風把我帶到這地方
wind, oh wind, who brought me to this place
藍色的記憶還留在我海上的家
blue coloured memories still left in my home on the sea.
輕輕躺在這城市的中央寧靜的夜晚眼角淚未乾
gently lying in the city's central, in the still of the night, my eyes still wet with tears
墜落在被月色撫摸的窗台上
falling onto the moonlit window ledge.

喔喔風啊風吹送著我的牽掛
oh oh, wind, oh wind, blowing away my longings
伴著海浪指引方向送到你臂彎
accompanying the directions of the sea waves into your arms
走啊走前往夢想的路上每次感覺孤單看著月兒彎
moving towards the dreams, whenever I'm feeling lonely, I look towards the crescent moon
彷彿笑著說 "你要勇敢別害怕"
who seems like smiling and saying, "you must be brave, don't be afraid"
擔心月兒會孤單星星守護在身旁
worried that the moon might be lonely, the stars watched over it by it's side
安靜地陪我夢了一段家鄉
Silently, accompanying me, dreaming a dream of my hometown.

Balcony Chronicles I

2009-07-29T22:35:00.005+08:00

My life had gotten heavier and heavier with every passing days..
Pre-lecture preparations which took hours.. Revision that took days..
It feels like.. I just don't have that much time.. and stamina as well..
Studying continuously for 2 hours every night is really tiring..
After whole day of 6 hours lectures, still have 2~4 hours of revision and study waiting for me..
Even weekend.. My weekends are not meant for resting..
But.. revisions.. I'm forced to dedicate all my time to it..
After 3 weeks in KL, I haven't step out of this 1km range of IMU..

After this flu striked, I realised how important it is to always keep health at optimal level..
The feeling of falling sick is totally suck in this tight schedule..

Was studying my biological science an hour ago.
I have statistics and general chemistry waiting for me still..
But my head is totally not absorbing anymore..
I leave my table, pick up a green apple in the fridge..
The sweet and sour green apple.. which always been my favourite during studying hard..
The sour feeling that be able to make me forget about those hardness I had been through..
Because... It just made me shout "Walao.. So SOUR!!" when I took my first bite..
After that, the sweet taste came in.. maybe after my tongue start to get use with the sour taste..
I pick up the apple and walked towards my balcony which had 3mm thick of dust 24 hours ago. I just clean it last night.
Feel the breeze blowing through my hairs. Smell the night wind..
Looking into the distance.. To the lights of Sri Petaling..
It somehow comforts me.. although it's not really a beautiful scenery..
Somehow reminds me of my balcony view back in Penang Island.. I always stand on my balcony and day dream for minutes after tired from studies..

Biting an apple while dreaming of someone.. Just a random someone that pop up my mind..
Wondering if she's fine and happy back there..
The taste of missing is totally like the taste of the green apple.. Sour but sweet at the same time..
A light breeze whisper by my ears.. I feel so much better..
Arigato.. Kaze-sama..

Accommodation..

2009-07-28T21:03:00.002+08:00

Today, I'm gonna talk about my accommodation in KL..
My room is a 100 sq feet (FYI. It's about 12 sq meters)..
My bed is a soft queen size bed and what's the great thing about it? I'm the only one sleeping on it.. Wheee~~!! My friend says next time can bring girl friend back to sleep.. swt.. =.="
I have 2 tables, 1 table to put all my reading materials and study stuffs while another is my computer table. Not to say I have a wardrobe that enough to put 2 people's clothes..
I bought my desktop over here.. and recently, I signed up for P1 WiMax.. So I can access internet 24/7 and the speed is consider very good.. compared to Streamyx.. Download using flashget can go up to 150kbps.. Multiple download can add up to 180kbps.. Isn't it nice..
The floor is parquet.. (FYI, it's the wooden rectangle tiles)

The facilities here are not bad. Got Astro (but I never watch TV de), Stove(that need to light up with a lighter), a cacat Washing Machine (so I have to wash my own shirts), a wooden door that will make you feel like bang the whole door down (The lock always jammed), a small fridge (dun have freezer duh). I bought my iron, water cooker.

My housemates.
1 guy from Penang Island that I mentioned before, the uplander. He's a friendly guy.
1 working in banking line guy.. that is so quiet. That although we staying under one "ceiling", we talk an average of 1/4 sentence per day. He's the kind that take the house as a resting spot. The balcony have dust of 3mm thick, he also don't care. The toilet tiles already blacken, he also can lay white eyes on it althought he's using it every single day. You got to believe me, I consider myself a very dirty and messy person. This guy is like 100x mine.. He can survive 5 years without a proper broom stick, a mop, floor detergent, toilet brush, toilet cleaner, kitchen cleaner.. Imagine how "fantastic" he can be?

Overall.. Other than those cacat facilities and this housemate.. The rest is okay for me. At least my room, I can keep it clean and tidy.. with a comfortable queen sized bed.. =)

Pandemic flu in IMU..

2009-07-27T19:20:00.002+08:00

Recently, I have no idea why, IMU students are like falling sick one after another..
With common symptoms: cough, flu, fever, headache, dizzy..
Even now, I'm one of them..
Flu is really suck eh.. Hope it's not H1N1..
This bacterium or virus must be really ruthless or daring..
To invade medical school like us.
Where people here are either phD in medical field or doctor-to-be or pharmacist-to-be or any future medical field professionals..
Or maybe the bacteria are taking us as a target board to train..
Or maybe is the air-conditional's fault..
The sickness affect most new intake students..
The auditorium or lecture theatre is freezing.. while the outdoor areas are freaking hot..
You know.. after entering a cold place and exit to a hot place..
Most people who haven't get use to it will fell sick..

God damned flu, can you ever stay away from me?

2 weeks here..

2009-07-27T09:48:00.002+08:00

It's been 2 weeks since I left Penang..
I'm kinda use to my independent life here..
I just got my internet connection here.. which makes my life even better..
Morning wake up.. Open computer, check for e-mails and facebook..
Then maybe watch some anime.. I'm watching K-On now..
Kinda like this anime duh.. It's about 4 high school students..
A little like Lucky Star..
Then take a shower, prepare breakfast (which mostly cereals), change clothes..
Then off to the university...
Oh well.. My coursemates are friendly enough..
At least I'm looking forward for their gentle smile when I'm heading to uni..
Lectures can be boring, but after they introduce e-learning..
The lectures became at least more interesting.
Since there won't be slide reading lecturers.
Oh my.. I hate slide readers.. I wonder why these people so fancy about that..
Come to think of it, e-learning is quite good. At least we know what to expect in the next lecture.
And make preparation to it.. Oh well.. Some people are just lazy..

Hmm.. Our class rep which known as the "Crowned Hero" in previous post.
I dislike him since that day he bombard the lecturer without using his head.
He just want to be hero and attract the girls' attention (as you know, 80% of my coursemates are girls). He is lucky that the lecturer he bombarded is not a good talker, but a gentle lady lecturer.
Or else, he will be eating his own words..
Maybe I am easy satisfied.. But good is a comparison noun.
What do you expect from the university..
You think it is not good enough to teach this way, then think of a solution..
That's what my Adventist's manager taught me..
"Don't give me your problems, unless you have a solution"

It's like.. You bombard me with irrational questions and expect me to give you a rational answer.
I would just say "What the hell you want me to do now?"

Okay.. enough of the hero.. Orientation is over..
Sigh.. It's a pleasant memory.
The first time, I'm playing without limit.
Just forget my reputation and image, to craze with these people.
Chiang, I dare you to cosplay a female character when you have the chance..

I really hope I can have a piano in my room..
Really miss the piano's sound..
We had a grand piano in the Lecture Theatre..
Get to play on it once.. It's so nice to play with..
I love grand piano.. But they are just so freaking expansive and space consuming..
Maybe I should take my electric keyboard over..
But.. electric keyboard has limited keys.. So some keys cannot play with it.. =(

After school, take a bath.. Rest.. Play games.. Dinner (which is always a headache)
and prepare for tomorrow's lecture..

In conclusion.. I'm living well.. =)

Yaya.. I'll do it..

2009-07-24T22:43:00.003+08:00

1. From now on, you can't tell lies.
Yes, your highness..

2. Are you ready?
Hai~!

3. Think back six months ago, were you single?
I had been single for near 2 years.

4. What do you carry with you at all times?
Handphone, Wallet..

5. When you say you don't care, do you mean it?
Depends on situations.. But most of the time, I just can't lay white eye on pathetics..

6. How are you feeling?
Tired.. Trying to write my practical report..

7. Is something wrong right now?
Don't think so..

8. Are you mad at someone?
Hmm.. No..

9. What's on your mind?
Finish my practical report and revise through my lectures..

10. Are you jealous of someone right now?
Yeah.. I'm insatiable..

11. Do you have a piggy bank that's actually shaped like a pig?
Nope..

12. Do you want to start over with anyone?
Hmm.. Yeah.. I guess so..

13. Do you know if anyone likes you?
No idea leh.. Anyone likes me right now?

14. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
I don't think so..

15. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
Write my practical report!!

16. True love or 1 billion bucks?
1 billion bucks!!!!

17. Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
Yeah.. When I was small?

18. Anything you would change about your life right now?
I want to be hyper and high..

19. You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get?
Back hand.. With the mascot..

20. Could you cry right now?
Nope.. Too tired to have any emotions..

21. Do you ever think about stuff and start crying?
Nope.. Even at the very sad moments when everyone is crying.. I still can't drop a tear..

22. How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
Quite often.. Just to give face..

23. Are you okay with the life you live?
Yeah.. Other than the boring lectures.. The other parts are perfectly okay..

24. Last person you told a secret to?
My housemate?

25. Do you like hugs?
Yeah... I would love to have 1..

26. Do you believe true love can conquer anything?
Yeah..

27. When was the last time you cried?
Few days ago.. When I was struggling about taking up that female characters or not..

28. How much money did you spend today?
near RM100.. For my WiMax Registration fee..

29. What are you sitting on right now?
A red plastic chair

30. Who's the last person you IM'd?
Crossburn?

31. What's something you really want right now, be honest.
I wish something or someone can satisfy my insatiable..

32. How do you feel about your hair right now?
No idea..

33. What did you do yesterday?
Class.. Listen to e-lecture.. Participate in Finale Night.. Having crazy buffet dinner with seniors and coursemates..

34. Would you forgive a friend for telling your biggest secret?
I shall curse him to the very depth of hell!!

35. Is there someone that makes you happy every time you speak with them?
Yeah..

36. When's the last time you said you were fine and you really weren't?
Some time ago..

37. Is someone on your mind right now?
Hmm.. Yeah..

38. Whose birthday is coming up?
Ian Gooi..

39. Were you happy when you woke up?
Not really.. I'm so freaking tired.. Had only like 6 hours of sleep last night..

40. What is one emotion you are feeling right now?
Emotion-less..

41. What's the last thing you ate?
Pizza!!

42. Are you easy to get along with?
Ask my friends?

43. Ever cheated on someone?
Hmm.. Does white lie counted?

44. Who is the last person to send you a text?
Ai Ling (My OO leader) - Ok then, we meet out some other times ya. Have a nice day. :)

45. What are you currently listening to?
Does voice of Corssburn counted?

46. My job is done.
Good then.. Have a nice day..
CLASS DISMISS!

Variety Night and Project Runway

2009-07-24T22:12:00.008+08:00

Variety Night was held in last Monday.. The day, I was sissified and being dressed like a girl..
The pictures that you all longed for.. is in my facebook.. Don't laugh.. Or I shall curse you to the depths of hell..
Project Runway was the events I participated during our Finale Night.. Every group has to send out a male and female representative to model and catwalk in this event. I happened to be the only male in the group, so I'm "honoured" to participate. The costume was hand made from a few pieces of clothes and strings and also some accessories..

This is my costume..
And she is my partner.. Aren't we gorgeous....

Anyway, we won the Best Spirit Prize.. We comprises of 7 members has better spirit than those who double our numbers.. Wahaha.. You girls are totally ownage..

Last but not least.. Here's our Mascot..
SHE-WARRIOR!!

Edited: I decided to post a few here.. Want more? Visit my facebook..
Phew.. Finally Orientation is over.. Time to concentrate on studies..

e-Learning

2009-07-21T10:05:00.003+08:00

This is some new teaching method that our university apply.
We are the pioneer..
The idea is that, you have to do quite a lot of pre-class preparation in the e-learning webpage.
Some of our lecturer will record their lecture there.
So when comes to lecture theatre, the lecturer won't need to deliver the drowsy lectures as what we experienced previously.

Yesterday was the first class we had this type of teaching method, the lecturer came in and ask:
"I believe you all had already read the lectures online, so any questions?"
Yesterday's topic was an easy topic, more like revision of our a-level topic, inheritance.
So no one has question.. The lecture finished in 20 minutes.

This teaching method had gained a lot of dissatisfaction and rejection from the majority of the class. From what we experience from previous study, our Malaysian education method is sppon feed. Basically, the teacher will provide everything you need and what we need to do is just digest and absorb them.
While this method will require a lot of pre-class preparation. The lecturer will be more like a guide.
A student even raise the question about "We are paying so much and what we get is some recording and slides" and you know what? He's crowned as a hero..!

Wow.. In my opinion, he is pathetic. You think how much your money worth.. Why not you just stay at home and research pharmacy which is free of charge.
Sighh.. I can't blame them. I would rather say, they are not use to it yet.
I kinda like this method. I rather read on my own, rather than listen to lecturer read from slides. It's a waste of time..
Well.. Maybe I had long given up on that. Reminds me of the days when I was form 4 and I slept every Physics and Biology lessons. I still make my way here.. Haha..

Sighh.. After these complaints, I think they are reverting it back to the normal read-slides-lectures. Nvm.. It can be a time for me to rest..

Have a nice day people,
Zhi Hao

Anyone misses me?

2009-07-17T17:52:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not be able to update till now..

My life now.. is consider.. Have a couple of wonderful friends..
Met a couple of wonderful people..
You know what? Among 20 people I met, I'm the youngest among all!
Due to my express A-level course, I'm one year younger than anyone else..
In addition, I'm a November kid.. So the chances are, not much people in my same course could possibly younger than me..

Okay.. About IMU, It's a nice place..
Just finished my lab orientation, the lab equipments are really AWESOME!!
I'm so looking forward for my lab class.. *high*
Chemistry rocks!
I have a senior mentor who is a girl from Penang..
I have a housemate also came from Penang.. Isn't it coincident?
Anyway, this housemate is WeiYun's classmate.. An uplander..
The seniors here are friendly and packed with loads of nonsense!
In our orientation, I met couple of those, they all really make you do some really nonsense.. That you will want to curse them to hell..
But it is because of these nonsense, that my life here become full-of-swearing and fun!
Think about it, if everyone is so serious and sense-ful.. You think will it still be fun?

My orientation group is an all-female team.. I'm the only guy..
And I'm appointed a leader.. A few of them are really hyper..
It's hard to match with their stamina and creativity..
If you people are thinking that I have "chances" and getting full attention..
You are definitely wrong! They are all taken..
Even the girl who looks the nerdiest has a boy friend..

Anyway.. For what I'm facing now..
I want to say.. I really need a hug now..

Coming up next: Zhi Hao is going to have cosplay this coming Monday..
His character: Zoe from Sesame Street..
And you know what? He's gonna dress up like a girl.. With make up..
And act like a girl..

Damn.. I'm so gonna be famous in Bukit Jalil..

My very first day in KL..

2009-07-12T14:42:00.003+08:00

Greetings from KL people..
I'm officially moved in to KL..
Finished unpacking and set up my desktop..
It's my father's idea of bringing it here..
I wanted a laptop.. But he say, for security reason, I should bring desktop instead..
Everything is set up and my room is kinda comfortable..
A queen size bed for me ALONE.. a study table and a computer table.. a wardrobe and 2 small cabinet to keep my dry supplies and first aids.
Hehe.. I haven't overnight at my new place yet.. Had a night with my relatives and family at my relatives house.. Tonight, I'm gonna stay in my room..
And tomorrow.. I'm gonna start my university life..
I'm kinda looking forward to it..
Good thing is.. It's near the LRT station, I can go anywhere in KL easily..
Even to Sunway Pyramid or Suria or Midvalley.. All I need is some LRT fare and a 5 minutes walk.. Hehe..
The bad thing is.. It's kinda difficult to find things to eat here.. Other than the university cafeteria.. There's barely any good place for food nearby.. A 10 minutes distance walk to the nearest housing estate.. There should have some food.. I hope so..
About my housemates, the first one is a working man in banking industry.. As Financial Advisor in CIMB bank..
The other one, I heard he is a student studying bio-medical.. Hmm.. and he's a Penangite..
Hmm.. I haven't met him yet.. I wonder who will he be..
Haha..

Next thing I gonna do is.. Sign up for the Digi campus plan for my handphone..
And install internet connection..
Or else, my computer will be useless other than offline gaming..

See ya people.. Miss you all..
Have a nice day,
Zhi Hao

Last 24..

2009-07-10T23:19:00.002+08:00

Today.. I had a great day..
Went out with Joanne, Ting and Zhao Wei to Tanjung Bungah seaside..
To mess around.. Making "sand-balls" to throw at each other..
Or use it as "Rasengan" to hit others.. Haha..
(FYI, Rasengan is featured in the manga Naruto. It's a skill that the character charged his power into a sphere and hit on the opponent on melee range)
It was a great afternoon..
Ting bought a "diary" that we used to write our memories in it..
When read of it, we kinda laugh on our naive and childish life..
Oh well.. It was a book 2 years ago. After I graduate from CL, I sort of quited chess..
So was kinda distance with them.. So didn't have follow up since then..
The feeling of seeing them again was really exciting and nice..
It's nice to see their gentle face again.. At least they don't have civil war between them..

Night time, I had dinner with Loon, Krystle, Chiang and Loon's brother, Wei Kheng..
We had it at Northam Beach Cafe.. The food there is expansive..
But it would be like a warming up before leaving to KL?
Cheng Yee say KL's food would be like that price..
Anyway, the food was fantastic.. With fantastic environment..
Except for the Char Koay Teow that I ordered..

I will departure to KL at 8am.. Schedule to arrive at around 1pm..
Gonna do some cleaning and unpacking there..